Saturday, April 30, 2005
heyas. had speech day todae. real lame. was late. xP nuthin happened tho. sucked mans. sit dere and nod all da way. -_-" waste mai time. and dey left us dere tu haf sauna. -_-" toopids. brainless gits. dunno how ta move da blardy fan. >.< ended,went ta look for silvia with zhutou. was rather pissed. took her own swit time. >= end up left without her. had ajisen. watched infection. *my first scary movie!* l0ls. buddens.hahs- didnt reali watch much of da show? l0ls. eyes were half shut most of da time.. lols. saw suwei. da guy suwei. was gonna meet em' after da movie. end up dey went ta orchad. sho didnt go. saw ricky and da softball bois at basement. dens.wanted ta watch another movie. lols. buddens.timing all nort good. =X saw lian.eileen and joanne. end up we haagen daaz. wakakax.* fun with fondue. xD l0ls. sho nice. *yummy* ^_^ walked around lookin for pressies. dens she had ta go ler. she walked me to bus-stop. went home. mee too. =)
*i talked to delyn tudae! w0ots~! hahs- i sound lk im some fella havin a crush on her. -_-" but well. ... nvm. you wont noe how i feel niwaes. =X*
+l0tsa lurve+
jane
Friday, April 29, 2005
bah-* school was aite. wulaoshi is sucha sucker. tink im jus gonna storm outta her class one of these daes. =X bio.was simply walkin around. doin nuthin much. fter school went ta collect ball. didnt walk with tong cus still didnt wanna walk da 3e4e5 way. =X got da red blue white ball th0. =) *beams* bus-sed home. hahs- was supposed ta go with tong. buddens.she was with delyn.tang and diot. dens dey were standin outside da sch for kinda long time. i dunno. didnt noe wad they were up to tho. tout dey wanted go stardee. sho lk.went off lors. dun wanna be extra dere. =X wanted ta take 28 home. saw rosling. she looks.different. heex. looks skinnier. hahs- end up still went with tong tang and gua. buddens didnt reali talk tu ani of em? =X
got home.lunched. wadever. was in a dilema whether to go or not to go. kinda reali wanted ta stardee? buddens.both of em' would be dere. i dunno lars. end up decided not ta go even tho tink i might haf stood a chance to if i asked. = gonna be speech dae 2mr. wadever. gtg. buais*~
+l0tsa lurve+
jane-
you noe what? he is MY tcher. MY coach. and dhat has NOTHING to do with YOU. whether hes sick,irritating,wadever YOU tink,is YOUR business. STOP tryin ta insult him in front of ME. he is MY t-i/c,MY coach. hes from MY school and dhat is absoulutely MY business. NOT YOURS. so keep your ass off MY coach. hes wonderful. UNLIKE pathetic YOU. you noe wad? no one reali gives a shit bout YOU. so shut up and get outta MY life. stop irritating ME. shoo-
above was dedicated esp. to dhat irritatin git in ma hse. dha oni guy in ma hse.
kkays- im over with dhat. niwaes.school was aite todae as well? last 2 periods i was peace-ing away th0. heex. rather fun? after school. walked along with zhutou. dens saw dey were gatherin. so went over. fter dat.went dnt room. find meiyun etc. tout frans was gonna do her beep agains. promised ta run with her. end up was nex thurs. gathered. went ta tm. thanks christin for bein dere. i cried in da theatre. =( almost all of em were dere. at first,was thinkin i shouldnt haf agreed ta e show last week. was sho sians. didnt wanna see em? or mebbe.didnt dare. i dunno. = bballers and softballers were dere as well. was indeed coach carter. was a great show. hahs- cried sho mani times. =X i dunno. simply reminded me of dha times we've spent togetha. haish. for dha match against st.francis,i dunno. simply linked it to us against prc. hahs- "they can end the lockup,but they cant force us to play ball." indeed. ges wad seriously made me cry was when he saed dat he was prouda them. m wonderin when will dat ever happen to us. niwaes.bball has 5 players. too bad. hahs- anorts can link everyone up. heex. da defender,lk gua. cruz,mebbe lk tong or tang. damien? i ges so. ges lk diot or ying. hahs- wadever lars. show was simply wonderful. used up so much of ma tears. hahs- would have gone with em for dinner probably. but well. - =X niwaes,saw xinmei.amelia.genevre and xuxu on da bus. found out dat xinmei is reali quite a cute gurl. heh. saw laogong in 201. she shout sho loud. sho paiseh. lols. kkays. nuthin much. ohyah. 1 more ting. jus one more. ii simply hate dat fella in ma hse. da oni guy. sucker. why cant he jus move out. i reali hate him. NOTE: HATE. bah- sucker. kayys- gotta run. before he comes out and nags lk SHIT again. -_-" bbabyes-
+l0tsa lurve+
jane-
Thursday, April 28, 2005
had mai music exam todae-! OMGs. tink im gonna fail tho. =X shoo cheem! =( buddens most of em didnt noe as well. hahs- i dun get ppl. wads dha point in goin thru e toopid paper once more after youve alreadi handed it up? jus makes you go thru da misery once more isnt it? =S wadever. but i reali dun lk dhat fella from st.hilda's from da class. i dunno. damn extra. i hate her. xP and dha PRC ppl. -_-" sho pengs. >.<>niwaes.cabbed to PRC. cus was kinda late? and da bus didnt come. = was rushin thru mai notes while in school tho. buddens.didnt finsh also lars. >.<> todae was a rather great day tho. due to the fact dhat tahiya didnt come. she was on course. =) buddens miss nor came in agains lars. -_-" sho sians. school was aite todae. had fun. playin with paper balls and wet tissue? hahs- reali hate dha yalams of mai class. i mean.when dhey are the ones makina hell load of noise,when dhey are the ones playin,we dont sae aniting isnt it? so why shld they give a damn bout us? real lame. -_-" qijie didnt come as well. sho good. simply shiok. hope he doesnt come 2molo as well. same goes for tahiya. =pPp am cabbing so much these few daes. =X reali mus cut down ler. =( kkays. goin for movie 2molo. dunno why,i ges its coach carter,the movie. but wadever. we'll noe 2molo isnt it? =) wadever. gtg. babyes-
*i need em. and im missin em. miss callin and sayin gua.diot.tang.chan.ying.huiying.perrine*
thanks loads to delyn for givin a damn bout me. lurve ya loads.
+l0tsa lurve+
jane-
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
was rather borin tudae. tink jailani was in good mood. no need to go see him 2molo durin recess ler. saw a lizard without its tail outside da dnt room todae. most of dha gurls screamed. heex. mebbe i did. once.or twice. = am thinkin who can accompany me 2molo durin recess. = i dunnoe. i did think. am i jus bein lame for doin this? i dunno. but when i try to look at em',or talk to em',esp delyn and js. i dunnoe. dhat feelin jus doesnt go away. am gonna fail mai geog test on maps. again. =X
cabbed home with ting and tong after school. was almost late for mai music lesson. cabbed there too. =X went walkin in white sands and ep. dunno. cried while on dha mrt. i dunno why. dhey jus started to blur mai vision. den..one drop.two drops. and dhey jus rolled down mai cheeks. =( i also dunno why. was jus stonin. missin em'. you know,its weird. its only been. around.4-5 days? since mebbe i last spoken to em'. but it feels lk decades have past. everyday is hard to past. ='(
niwaes.gonna haf mai music exam tomorrow. am so scared. nniwaes.wish me best of luck. =S
*missin em'*
+l0tsa lurve+
jane-
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
im back. was a rather lousy day i had todae. i dunnoe. all of dha gurls were stopped by monster tay in da mornin. was kinda good and bad. good,no need see tahiya. bad,everyone stop by to ask what we were doin dere. -_-" dens went bak ta class. i dunno when dhey started tokin bout it. but overheard tong and qijie tokin. bout not wantin ta go seoul. not wantin ta eat. feelin siandeds. -_-" also siandeds. i duno. =pPp dens.i forgot durin what lesson it was. jinshu walked past. everything came back to me. realised dhat.i still cant bear to look at any of em'.directly. im sori. i was lookin at her back. even so,i couldnt bear to look any longer. not to mention straight in dha face. recess.went ta look for jailani. most of us were askin mdm suziana to drag longer tho. hahs- dens.tink e other gurls went to canteen. didnt wan to bump into any of dha gurls. so didnt follow. and aniwaes was gettin rather frustrated over e seoul ting at that time. so went with shujuan to class to get her curry puff. = after school.saw delyn. hid.near the door. behind the wall. didnt wanna look at her straight in dha face. couldnt face her. was rather pissed. whoever saed that planning alwaes works,im tellin ya,it doesnt. everyone started to sae dun wan go. wadever. postphone. wadever. no money. wadever. was rather pissed not by the fact that everyone started to back out,but by the fact that they couldnt make up their minds. shujuan and gary were waitin for us and dhey were lk still discussin. reali didnt feel lk goin after dhat. but did aniwaes. yingchiu went laogong's hse and tong went with delyn dey all to kfc. i dont reali blame her tho. as in.its not her problem with them. its me. ges i would've tagged along if it wasnt for... niwaes.could have informed us earlier tho. dens no nid last min. =X
gotta seoul by bus. poor shujuan had ta entertain both me and her gary. cus the 2 guys went to qijie's hse. niwaes.was rather sianded when got dhere. didnt haf any appeite. sho went ta giagia. saw dushen.weeyou and e other 2 guys. dey went into toys r us. = lols. dens jiu went in to eat. learnt somthing todae. *everyone has diff. methods of eating.* =X wasnt too enjoyable. wadever. was talkin on dha fone most of da time? =X dens.left them. went off ta get present for frans. and geog workbook. xP saw joey ho. was kinda fun seein him. cabbed home. tata-
i'm thinkin of em'-
i'm missin em'-
i need em'-
but i cant face em'-
jane-
Monday, April 25, 2005
What Card Captor Sakura Character Are You?
Hosted by theOtaku.com: Anime. Done right.
love him. =)
What Sanrio Character Are You?
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=)
What Spirited Away Character Are You?
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really?-
Who's Your Sohma Guy?
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pr0bably-
its sunday. sadly. niwaes.went out with dum and ppp todae. kinda enjoyed mai time with em' th0. was rather borin at first,but started tu get more fun lor. wasted $3 on 3 eggs tudae. hahs- wadever. na lai mai kuai le. zhi de- =pPp i..well,i dun reali noe. it was a rather fun dae and i seemed to be enjoyin maiself. which is a good thing. but.the thing is.once things quieten,i start tu hu si luan xiang agains. suppose im supposed ta keep maiself busy. to get thigns off mai mind. but dhen again,dhats escaping from reality. not facing dha problem. wadever. i dunno. i seem tu be acting in front of mai family.frens.everyone else. esp.mai family. i duuno. but i can luff and talk and everything else. but.when im alone,it feels terrible. very much. im bleeding inside. i can feel it. i d0nch noe. i d0nch want to noe. i d0nch wish to noe. i d0nch noe. i d0nch-
``will you cry for me? if i die? will yo0 be upset? happy? or unaffected at all? will anyone cry for me?``
+l0tsa lurve+ *depression in progress. do not disturb. let me rot.*
jane-
Sunday, April 24, 2005
saturdae. tudae. spent mai dae. bloggin.watchin teevee.piano-ing.slackin.rottin.cryin.tearin. see whut i mean? i dunno. i jus couldnt take it. tong is bein so nice. wo cheng shou bu qi. bu yao dui wo ne me hao-
niwaes.mai blog skin has gone crazee agains.
+l0tsa lurve+ *depression in progress. let me rot. do not disturb.*
jane-
oh yar. 1 more thing. hurt maiself on fridae. kinda. 4e5 started cumin outta their classroom ta go tu dha. com lab i ges. niwaes.was hurt rahter badly. hit ma elbow on dha pillar. real hard. was so pain i couldnt take it. had ta lean on dha wall. couldnt even see properly. was lk blacking out. it hurt dhat much. dhe ting is.when i was hurt.dhat badly. where were mai frens. mai best buds? was only delyn whu was passin by. was dha onli one whu cared to ask. ask whut happened. ask how i was. was jus right outside 3e5. where was xinyi. where were all mai frens? neva felt sh0 lonely. haf alwaes been prouda maiself. for havin loads and loadsa frens. but. when i needed em. where were dhey?
am nort so sure whether sotong pai was a right decision. mebbe.jus mebbe. if i was eliminated. dhey would be dha best of buds. dhey would go tu great heights. dhey would enjoy every moment of each other. whut am i doin here?! =(
haf decided not ta go intu close contact with ani of dha nb-llers. mebbe.jus for now. until i am ready. until i haf dha face tu go and face them. not dhat any of em will come and look for me out of own accord. was alwaes dha one tryin ta make conversation. tryin ta blend in with em. bud. wadever. i dunnoe.
okayy. mebbe not all of em. exception of mebbe ira and tong. =)
+l0tsa lurve+ *depression in progress. let me rot.*
jane-
Saturday, April 23, 2005
Boonie, your true talent is mechanical ability
You're curious about how things work and enjoy tinkering with machines. People like you can be both self-sufficient and a great help to others. You are much better than most people at fixing things — whether it's changing a flat tire or tightening a leaky faucet.How do we know that's your true talent? While you were taking the test, we calculated your responses to each test question and rated your skills in 5 areas. You scored highest on mechanical ability.No matter what kind of career you choose, you'll enjoy it most if it involves working with your hands or seeing the tangible results of your efforts.And that's just a small part of what we know about you from your test results. You also have other hidden talents that can have a dramatic effect on your career, your life and how other people see you.
Don't get trapped in a dead-end job that doesn't match your true talents.sho keai- hahs-
How You Approach Life and How You Appear To Others:
You appear gentle and soft, and you act rather reserved with others until you know them well and feel it is safe to be open with them. You have a strong need for emotional security and a sense of belonging, and are deeply attached to the past: your heritage, roots, family, cherished friends, familiar places, etc. Making radical changes or moves away from what is known and safe can be very painful and difficult for you. You tend to cling and hold on to people, memories, possessions of personal or sentimental significance. Having a home, a safe haven, is very important to you. Section 2: The Inner You Your Real Motivation:
You are a person who thrives on challenge, and you often feel that you must battle your way through life, depending upon no one and nothing but your own strength, intelligence, and courage. You believe in being totally honest, true to oneself and one's own vision and convictions, even if that means standing alone. Honesty, integrity, personal honor, and authenticity are your gods, and you have no sympathy for weakness of character in others
is dhis person reali me? im nort sure th0-
I realised that although I am always very strict and stern to the girls during training, I am also their biggest fan. I am always there, I see their hardwork, their struggles, their joy, their pain and their growth. I shared with them all these emotions... I demand and set high standard for them and I am so proud of them for overcoming most of their struggles...
teared when i read this..i alwaes knew dhat he was givin us alot. but.this was reali sumting dhat.left a big ipression on me. intersting how ppl's minds work doesnt it? i d0nch noe. reali feel dhat our batch is lettin him down. lettin everyone down. or mebbe. its me.
The man who does things makes many mistakes, but he never makes the biggest mistake of all - doing nothing."
Never believe you're better than anybody else, but remember that you're just as good as everybody else." No better, but just as good....
all these were stolen. =pPp
here i am. pitying maiself again. well. wadever. this sucks. thursdae was a rather horrible dae. stomachache thru dha dae. didnt want ta go sch. but. as expected. im still supposed ta go. -_-" lasted till dha chem test. sucked at it. gonna fail it again. >.<>
fridae. rather fun? and wu nai as well. *sigh* had pe. was helpin miss goh with dha ppl for their nafa. 5 stations. den.dnt. slept thru it. most of it. recess. ate den went straight up. stupid gavin had to go and sae we were alreadi released. dhat polka dot had ta add fuel to fire in front of jailani. wadever. not gonna haf recess for next mondae.tuesdae and wednesdae. wadever. this sux. i hate dha yalams of mai class. i hate dhat polka dot. she sux tu high sky. in class. didnt reali care tu bother bout her. im thinkin dhat i'l stardee and score betta if im doin dha studyin maiself. wadever. bio. dhey were tryin ta plae spirit of coin. but wadever. didnt reali care. was feelin real scared. real nervous. i onli needed a shoulder for me tu lean on. after school. saw e5 cumin up. waited for xinyi at dha door. but in de end. she rushed of with silvia. lookin for silvia's fone. went ta e5 ta slack around. dhey started sayin was supposed ta go all dha wae ta stage 6. was so afraid i teared. felt so much lk cryin tho. went ta cca room. went bak down ta dha notice board. found out it was gonna be 5.5 afterall. felt much more relieved. but. whutever. was still jus as scary. was rather restless. was damn afraid. i d0nch noe. was partnerin with tong. halfwae thru. blardy chinese dance had tu barge in. dhen mr teo went ta talk ta e teach ic. he asked for half an hour. but in dha end. dhey still started. and made a fuss of themselves. i hate dha chinese dancers. aniwaes.we went down ta dha parade square. thankiew mr ng and mr tay. for lettin us haf dhat lil space tu us for dhat time. ges i was a lil too nervous. niwaes.wanted ta stay calm all dha wae. apprantly.i failed. wanted ta haf ma besties beside me. side by side. we'll encourage and be dhere for each other. but for some reason.dhey went tu dhe other side. was left with yiting.and mebbe eunice. but dhey were on angela's side. never felt so lonely in mai life. whutever. it finally started. ges i was kinda. too gan jiong? i dunnoe. i jus wanted ta get tu 5.5 and mebbe 6? it all ended. i left them at 5.7. pathetic freak. i dont even noe if dhat was mai best. i mean,could haf sprinted at dha last few times? i dunno. was feelin terrible. physically and emotionally. it sucks. it reali does. knowin dhat youre not even worth a sec 1. worse dhen a sec 1. all of them.had a MINIMUM of stage 6. me? 5.7. you will never noe how bad dhat feels. this feeling sux. it reali does. all i noe how tu do is cry. cry. and cry. nothing else. im sucha pathetic freak. i dunnoe. look.im tearin again. pathetic freak. i dunnoe. i reali d0nch noe. its lk. dha betta dhey treat me.dhe more i feel i owe them. i noe its actually all up tu me. its all bout me. i dont reali owe them anithin or whut. but. it jus feels lk ive let em down. i duunoe. disappointed them. and all i noe is to cry. sucker. this feeling sux. it reali does. ive let em all down. ive been sucha disappointment.
niwaes.thanks loads tu all of you who cared. esp.tong and ira. for keepin me company. and tu ira. for even caring tu ask. and double ask. it was dhat "sure?" of yours. dhat brought mai tears back. dhat brought me back to reality. thanks so much. lurve you loads.
thanks everyone. for even caring. and for all your concern. but i doubt i'l haf dha face tu face any of eu in dhis short period of time. jus let me rot.
*im sucha pathetic freak. depression in progress*
+l0tsa lurve+
jane-
Friday, April 22, 2005
i hate maiself. l0adsa stuffs ta tok bouts. but. not now. be back when dum's top comes bak. =(
bah-*
thiis sh0 shucks. i d0nch noe. i managed ta scrape a pass. but so wad? i dunnoe. im lk sucha sucker. lousy crap. pathertic freak.
wo mei lian zai jian delyn. Mei lian zai jian wo de dui-you. Mei lian zai chuan wo men de xiao dui de yi fu ler.
thiis sh0 shucks. I hate maiself. *useless f0ol*
true. I mean. F0r lotsa stuff,you get 2nd chances. But s0 wad? N0 one wil give you a 2nd chance when y0u’re on court. =X
+l0tsa lurve+ * I hate maiself *
jane-
Thursday, April 21, 2005
bah-* m0ndae was great. tuesdae rather sicked. dae of rushin in and out. =( niwaes.mai mind has been rather plain these few daes. its been- ouch-5.5-ouch-stardee-ouch-*cough*-ouch-im hungry-ouch-im sleepy-ouch* tighs haf been hurtin lk hell. all cosh of miss goh. =X bleahs- was supposed ta be on mc on mondae! -_-" wadever. found out tudae.jolene's been sufferin lk me. i couldnt take it. went ta buy all sorts of stuff. id betta get well b4 fridae. anot im dead. reali dead. 5.5..5.5..5.5.. its reali stuck in mai mind. cant seem ta get it out. =( haish. im totally stressed out. almost freaked out tudae,after lookin at da music past year papers. im gonna fail. >.<> gonna go makan on mondae. havent asked th0. dunn0es. wadever. am sh0 stressed out now. gonna haf chem test 2molo after sch. shucks. why cant i fall sick. i wanna fall sick. fallin sick rawks. am finshin mai vcds. =( g0tta go buy new box soon. =)
+l0tsa lurve+
jane-
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
*NAVY*
You are attractive, and love your life. You have a strong feeling towards everything. And very easily distracted. Once you get angry at someone, its hard for you to forgive them.
im navy! ^_^ true.true. hahs- =))
g0t l0ads ta sae. but n0 time. =X bleahs- g0tta tok fast fast. ^_^ kkies. 1st-ly,i've succeeded. ^_^\/ i've g0tten over it. its great. im havin mai fren bak. n0 harm d0ne. x) kkiex. last fridae was..fun? =) m0rnin. went ta polyclinic. while waitin,reminded me 0f da tym with e grp 0f gurls arn t0ng. ^_^ l0ls. noe its nort supposed ta be memorable,but.. well. xD l0ls. dens.e d0c was sho farni. lols. wadever. dens went ta make i/c. ^_^ sh0 fun. lols. went up and down da escalators tu find da shortest queue f0r fotos. x) lols. kkiex. dens went home? yar. carn tink of anithin else. kkies.
sat and sun were slackin daes mans. t0tally slacked. heex.
haish. m0ndae is bak. =( but.dunn0e why. deres a m0 ming de happi feelin. =S heex. wadever. ^_^ niwaes,sch was.kinda fun? ^_^ no. was real great. =) heex. kkiex. hrms.chem. sh0 cute. thiru wadd. xP dens.chinese.was havin test with joanne. sh0 fun. l0ls. 0hya,durin chem. went d0wn for dental check th0. =) nuthin much. she saed i 0nli needed a polish. x) kies. bak ta where i left. ge0g. great. abs0ulutely w0nderful. tudae's ge0g period rawked. t0tally. ^_^ tink.m0st of da funn ppl were standin outside. either cus of workbook,or cus of da map. =pPp dens.yuxin even talked on da hp while outside lors. l0ls. sho fun. =) was kinda havin fun th0 wasnt supposed tu lars. l0ls. but it was joyclyn low. sh0.wadever ya? ^_^\/ wakakax. dens.maths. i actually went ta draw e graph out okayy.. *pats maself on da shoulder* =pPp dens jiu after school ler. waited f0r trainin with them l0rs. didnt train th0. cus im still sick. =X l0okin at them d0in dah drills was reali tempting f0r me th0. felt so much ta go train with em. =( *sigh* wadever. ^_^
went f0r dinner. cabbed h0me. cuss was fraid da pigg at h0me would die of hunger. =X found out dhat this weds still g0rt o level music. =( watched plenty of jiang shis. ^_^ kkies. went ta bath. gtg lers. heex. 0hya! we changed sitting arrangement tudae. =X bah-* im sittin with da group of gurls now. seems betta. seems worse. =X i dunnoe. tink i still prefer da past. ^_^
nitex!
+l0tsa lurve+
cheers~! ~*-jAn3-*~
Friday, April 15, 2005
heyas. sh0 sorii. wanted ta tel bout tuesdae yesterdae,buddens.well.forgot bout it. l0ls. niwaes.tuesdae. was kinda long dae. had sum lame chinese opera. -_-" its nort even interesting. -__-" sh0 sians. also dunno wad ernieza and jolene were luffin bout. -_-" diaos. *wadever* after sch.had nb meetin with sec 2s and 3s. hrms.dens tong went off first. cus she had tuition. and i.. well,wanted ta go for da chem ting dat thiru proposed? hrms.. niwaes,is to do e tys de lars. end up i went,nobody at all. =X sh0 went off with diot.tang and chan lors. went ta watch movie. ^_^ wakakax. well.. i would hav wanted ta watch eye10,buddens.. timing no good lars. l0ls. dens went ta cs ta check lors. timing also sama sama.. -_-" sho.dey wanted ta go bak tm ta watch pacifier lers. buddens found out dat cs was onli $6.50 lors. lk.cheaper by..$1? or 50 cents? dunno lars. niwaes,was lazy lars. l0ls. sho watched wedding date at cs lors. ^_^ was kinda nice show th0. =)) heex.
kekex. dens.was on ma way home. dens suddenly remembered dat i needed ta go take i/c pic. heex. sh0 drag ying along with me. l0ls. ^_^ dens was kinda tidying up when.. OMGs! i saw a rat. =0 i was lk. omgomgomg! l0ls. dens was tellin chan,if was tong,she sure scream de.. l0ls. kkies. nuthin much ler. heex. gtgs. bbuais. miss mi wor! x)
cheers~! ~*-jAn3-*~
Thursday, April 14, 2005
ive given maiself 1 week ta get over everything and let everything go bak ta normal. my week's almost up. tink im forgetting most tings already. dats good. hope by e end of e week i can forget everything.
kkies. didnt go sch yesterdae. was sick. still am todae tho. but.ges feelin lil betta frm yesterdae. buddens.well. wadever. sians. joycelyn low called ma hp todae. cus she asked for all our parent's fone numbers e other time. dens me and tong gave her our hp numbers,exchanged. end up she called mine as tong's parent lors. dens i also duno why,but she ended up calling my hse. dens pop picked up. dens he hagged at me lk shit again. -_-" sians. ying chiu's bak in school ler. buddens its lk. she missed out loads already? and da comman test's comin soon. hope she can catch up bahs. niwaes,isnt it ironic? how ppl wish for something so much. den when you are finally able to grasp it,you let go. i donch noe. i dont getit either. =(
+l0tsa lurve+
~*-jAn3-*~
i d0nch get it. why do ppl like to complicate everything? could have stayed real g0od frens. but. ppl jus like ta complicate everything. spoils everything. spoils frenship. spoils lives. spoils EVERYTHING. >.<>
Sunday, April 10, 2005
sads- burfdae ish over. =( haf ta bounce bak ta reality now. =< haish. niwaes,am reali sory ta all of ya for ever subjecting you tu al dat misery. *gan tong shen shou* =( kkiex. dats all for now. tata-
cheers~! `*-jAn3-*~
heyas~! am sh0oo happi^! ^_^ wakakax* l0ls. todae,i bought a dress! and e series 2 vcd!! xD wh0oOoOh0oOoOo~! l0ls. am sh0 high now.. lols.
kkies. hrms.went bowling todae. wakakax* with ying.diot.deline and tang. arcerli tong and suwae also got de.. end ups tong had ta go makan with fam dens suwae lazy. -_-" lols. was..kinda fun? ^_^ hahs- toopids de diots.gua and tang sh0o tyco lors. lols. stupids de.. lols. still got 1 pin standing leis! where got strike sia.. lols. xp *wadever.rolls eyes* l0ls. kkiex. dens went ta bugis for lunch. heex. ying didnt go th0. cus she was real tired. heehs. sho kelianx. >.<>.<>.<>.<>
met mom and dum. was late tho. heex. ^_* had sakae for dinner.. jap meal again. l0ls. after dinner. went walkin around l0rs. wanted ta get da vcds frm pohkim. end up d0nch haf. =( sh0 walked around. wanted ta get clothes from metro. end up d0nch suit mie. =( dens.went tm. wanted ta get mai seal. ^_^ end up.d0nch haf. =(( sh0.went challenger. mom wanted ta get mouse. end up. challenger close. =S l0ls. sho went ta this fashion. got a dress kinda ting and a long long wulei skirt!! ^_^ *beams* hahs- dens.got e vcds at ts. l0ls. happi*! wanted ta drink bubble tea.. buddens da shop close ler. =( hahs- sho nvm lors. got home. watch vcd. l0ls. kkies.
thanks loads ta- tong. tang. ying. gua. diot. omelette. ahma. dum. liyana. hanyang. siewli. funn. xinglun. prefect~!. meiyun. aunty linda. aunty b. aunty meh. ahma,da real ahma-l0ls. joyce,soh. shila. m0m. ernieza. yunru. macdonalds? lols. ignitius. dalinah. saddiq. jinkeat. kailiang. !!! wakakax*
kkies. 12 ish over. =( haf ta wait for another year now. l0ls. kkiex. bbuais-
cheers~! ~*-jAn3-*~
Saturday, April 09, 2005
*whEeeEeeEe~!* burfdae!! ^_^\/ heex. had sports dae tudae. X bleahs- sho sucky. =X haish. mornin. dunno why alsho? she got pissed with..me? *blurddedz* diaos- wadever. she bo chup dens i also bochup lors. lols. dens.aniwaes.after school. brought em' ta aunty agnes dere. dens haf ta wait sho long. x( haish. dens everyone alsho lk sian diao lers. =( haish. dens finally get ta cut. all of em'.cut liaos lk nort happi with it liddats leis. x( *was i wrong ta bring em' dere?* =( dens.jiu went ta stadium lers. we walked quite far arhs. dens.wanted ta take cab at last de. buddens end up bus come liaos. heehs. was sho scared dat i'l be late. ran all e way to e stadium. cus ma t-ic was mr teo. =S sho ran all e wae lors. end up reach dere.romei still standing dere lk sho free liddats. -_-" lols. dens went ta change. dens tang and tong jiu came in lers. lols. ers.nuthin much bahs? jus e normal sports dae routine lors. heehs. hrms. thanks tu- zhutou. baichi. ahma. wenjie. mingfang. shaohui. omelette. hanyang. tong. lynn. elaine. dum.~! thanks sho muchies for da gifts and greetings-! ^_^
kkies. gtg lers. bbuais! nitex!
+l0tsa lurve+
cheers~! ~*-jAn3-*~
Thursday, April 07, 2005
yos. l0ls. had ma burfdae cake tudae! *whEeEEeeEe* lols. sho nice. buddens with oli around,super qi gek. -____-" haish. shall nort buy this cake again if shes around when i cut cake next year. =X bth. felt lk smackin her. =X lols. dens everything lk. sho le chey lors. lols. haish. wadever. =x lols. *whEeeEeeEe!!* finally got ma reebok coin pouch. ^_^\/ -heehs- got lotsa $$ *whahahas* lols. buy da fat fat seal!! ^_^ kkies. gtg pom pom lers. buais
cheers~! ~*-jAn3-*~
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
yihui.weijie.cherly,ying chiu. hahs-
so much for tryin ta stay happi for ma burfdae week. cried thrice tudae. wads da point. you treat me sh0 mean. den you come in ta say you forgot. lk.thanks alot ya? ='( haish. carnt take it animore. gonna die. gonna lose it under tha pressure. carnt take it animore. i d0nch noe. i don wanna noe. its all bours stardee stardee and more stardee. i need ta take a breather. its n0rt dat i havent tried. it reali sux. this reali sucks. i haf tried. i reali haf. but it simply doesnt work on me. is dhat sh0? or.mebbe i jus havent tried hard enuf. i d0nch noe. i reali d0nch. im g0nna lose it. s0on...
nites. -jane
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
heyas. im back. =X heehs- jus checked out da cakes. im g0nna order burfdae cake! *whEeeEeeE~!* hahs- am determined ta stay happi f0r this week. ^_^\/ l0ls. *whEeEeeE!* burfdae cumin!! wahahax. lols. sh0 fun.. x) kies. shall not sae much. no time ler. lols. gtgs. bbuais. niteX!
cheers~! ~*-jAn3-*~
Saturday, April 02, 2005
i haf betrayed their trust in mi. again. ='( i'm so sori. it was a m0ment of impulse. i reali didnt mean f0r things tu turn out so badly. i'm sori. i reali am.
NOTE-
p-ing sch ish bad for da health. and da heart. do not try. =(
i haf let mai team-mates down as well. for not turning up tudae. i dunno if its betta for them like dat. or for the worse. i dont noe. i reali dont. all i noe now is dat i am a dumb dumb dumb jackass. why in da hell did i do dat. i have let everyone down. im so so so sorry. no amounts of apologizing can show how guilty i am. how regretful i am. =(
the fact is,i didnt haf e consent form. i didnt get to use the com. i couldnt. had to do e stupid file. and i didnt dare to ask mr teo. or my mum. not to mention my dad. he jus saed dat he was gonna stop my trainings. but the ting is dat i alreadi haf 1 training less compared to them. how could he do this to me?! ='( it was just an excuse to perrine. all dhat crap bout not getting e consent form and everything. the fact is dat i am a hopelessly gut-less freak who hides in her shell when things happen.
i dont noe. i reali dont. im trying to escape from reality again.
i longed to get to knc. get onto e battling court with them. i longed to go orchad with him. i longed to regain the trust i had in them. i longed to go back in time. i long to smack myself in da face. to wake myself up. to stop escaping from reality. but... too late. ='(
