Friday, April 28, 2006


"I realise that any normal girl would be thrilled to hear the word Love at some point in her life uttered by the man of her dreams. And I am no exception – thrilled, delighted, vexed and a little bit apprehensive of getting in over my head, that is. When it comes down to it, I think I just don’t want to jinx anything by being my reckless, idiotic self and putting my foot so far in my mouth I can taste my own neck (made even less palatable seeing I'm wearing the wrong pair of shoes)." -MissSash.
i sososo agree with her. =//


why is it the ppl i know, more specifically, the my TENZING mates, all seem to know the ppl around me? ghalib-dalinah. ghalib-tarah. ariff-ira. =// i dont reali know why im so bothered over these. mebbe its just that. i miss them so much. =( the different groups of ppl that have came into, and left my life. TENZING. our bond for.. what? 5-6 days? my beloved grp3. no doubt, we're still in contact, much due to the fact that, we are still in the same school. but, will it stay the same? =( SIGHS*
and im saying this mans- ADELINE GOH. CHUA SUWEI. ZHANG JINSHU. ONG XINYI. !!! i am SOSOSO damn freaking JEALOUS,ENVIOUS, of the class bond that you all have. or at least, had. =(( i miss my darling 3e4. we might have been a very much seperated class, but at the very least, we stood together when the need came up. not anymore. =((
i miss fish. i miss sotong. i miss evon. and to some extent, i actually miss zulfadli, syiddiq, nazrul. =((
but reali, im thankful. for the fact that i still have ppl lk zhaokai. shujuan. gavin. joanne. saddiq. meiyun. hasif. in my class. they are what pushes me to school, to class everyday. =)) and for that, thanks so much my dear classmates. (((:

You will have such a good outlook today that it will be hard for you to decide between all of the equally appealing alternatives. That's a nice problem to have, so enjoy it while it lasts.
- wednesday,april 25th.
yah right. sucha NICE problem. x(( so NICE that i messed my whole exam. and did nothing during the rehearsal. x((

jane-


Section 1: The Inner You: Your Real Motivation
You are a person who thrives on challenge, and you often feel that you must battle your way through life, depending upon no one and nothing but your own strength, intelligence, and courage. You believe in being totally honest, true to oneself and one's own vision and convictions, even if that means standing alone. Honesty, integrity, personal honor, and authenticity are your gods, and you have no sympathy for weakness of character in others.
Section 2: Mental Interests and Abilities
Your mind operates in a very deliberate and methodical manner and you dislike being rushed or forced to give an opinion before you have thoroughly ruminated and digested an idea. You are also difficult to influence once your mind is made up.

Chapter 1: The Sun - Your Ego Structure
SUN IN ARIES
You feel yourself to be a natural leader. You are always looking for the spot at the head of the company or the class. You are unconcerned with whether or not others follow you on your various crusades and campaigns. Your basic nature is independent and instantaneously self-expressive. You are good at sizing up a situation quickly. Because you are impulsive, others may think of you as thoughtless or careless. You do often lack patience and tolerance with others. Learn moderation and life is easier.

i love these results. its all me. at least,i feel so. x)) but sadly,its shorter than it should be lars. cus i refuse to PAY to get the full-length one. hah. 2nd FULLDRESS rehearsal was CRAP mans. made us go FULLDRESS,den do NOTHING. crap. freakin LOUSY organisation. LOUSY time management. and trust them to call themselves TEACHERS. FREAKS. x(( waste of time lk CRAP. =.="
i have sososo seriously gotta cut down on my usage of the f word. =x seems ive been using it over little little things recently. and i do NOT like that.
x( mustcontrol*mustcontrol* =xx
my practical exam was a total FLOP. x'(( boohoohoo. i totally messed up can. freak lar. and to think i was counting on my practical to bring up my scores. i think i can kiss that thought goodbye now. =((( gahhhh*

i think i'l fare badly for my mid-years. =((

love,jane- Saturday, April 22, 2006


my tear glands are reali feeling neglected. i think. thats why theyve been wanting so much to make their presence known once again. GAHHH* x(( sheesh.

i think its at these kinda times,that the words count the most. or rather,we should never, never take talk before thinking of the consequences. something like that. i learnt my lesson last year, what i said to sotong was unintentional, a way i THOUGHT could loosen things up. but it turned out otherwise. then, it was bean. thru things that cake said; i think. yesterday I felt it myself. thru her words. wtf is with being AFRAID. SCARED of watching SCARY movies. fark* i totally forgot the word she used. but. it did NOT feel good. the feeling of being called a coward sucks. and THAT word that she used, made me feel even worse. but what can i say? i mean, is it reali sucha crime to be blardy afraid of watching those blasted movies? justFARKoff lar. this is damn exhausting. ffff.

another thing ive been thinking of today. ever realised how the photos we showoff on friendster,on our blogs and wadever, are ALWAYS the ones that show smiles and the ('.')\/ signs? i wanna be a photographer. one that takes photos of sadness. of ppl crying. of anger. of ppl screaming and shouting at others. and everything else. x)

was watching yu le bai fen bai the other day. caoge and mayi are SUPER . er. sweet. ya. DAMN SWEET CAN. x)) they can make ANYONE feel lk falling in love larrs. i also want someone who sings to me. someone i can lean on when im tired. someone to hug me when im cold. someone to talk to me to the wee hours. someone..i can hold hands with and feel lk im the happiest person on earth. gah*

FOCUS. jane, you need to FOCUS!!!!! x( bahhhhhhh*

ohyahohyahohyah. i SO WANT TO COMPLAIN! STUPID speechday rehersal. made me lose my afternoon napping time. x( den made me wear until LIDDAT and walk around holding the music books. -_-" had sucha headache after dat. den had training. =.="

+l0tsa lurve+
jane- Thursday, April 20, 2006


------------------APRIL BABY -------------------
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous.
Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and
sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does
work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive.
Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good
memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look
for information. Able to cheer evryone up and/or
make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and
others. Understanding. Fun to be around.
Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive.
Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and
traveling. Systematic. hott but has brains.

yay. yay. YAY. YAYYYY. xDDD its nice to hear/see compliments once in a while. xD

have been uber busy. stayed up till 4 on tuesday nite to do dnt folio. stayed up till 3+ last nite to do chinese powerpoint presentation. =// omggs. missed tuition again today. =( down to yishun sports hall to watch the finals.
c div - sss vs chij toapayoh.
b div - rgs vs chij toapayoh

sss won. and chij toapayoh for b div. the rgs b div does NOT look b div at all lor. lol. they look lk c div sia. =//

nothin much these few days. im so looking forwad to magicfundoshi and not to speech day. =//

+l0tsa lurve+
jane- Monday, April 17, 2006


why is it. that i am simply able to link everything to him. -_-" freak. FOCUS, jane, FOCUS. gahhh* =//

this balding psycho came to our class to preach about maths just now. i think hes mad. or mebbe he had an unhappy childhood. -_-" EVILFREAK. x(

gotta go photocopy my bio tys now. zaos -

jane- Sunday, April 16, 2006


i SO hate those imbeciles people. that do NOT see me studying, and automatically ASSUME that i do NOT study. last year, it was that-moron-whom-i-have-no-wish-of-mentioning. this year, it has been yunru. prine. chan. -_-" PLEASE. just because you dont SEE me studying, doesnt MEAN i HAVENT been studying. gahhh* DO NOT ASSUME WHAT YOU SEE IS ALWAYS WHAT YOU GET. AND. i do NOT have the responsibility of SHOWING/PROVING you what i have done, with MY results. i study, I know ive done MY part. if it doesnt show on the results, JUST TOO BAD. its not something that I want, but if thats how it is, i'll take it as it is. i dont have a choice, do i?
get a life.

have been lazy to blog lars. one whole week of events. shall blog. when i feel lk it. =p

jane- Saturday, April 08, 2006


no-lifer.
if im not going out with js 2mr,i'l probably stay home. and do DNT. -_-"

ohwells- out with xinyi today~ x) it was such an EYE-OPENING day. lol. as in, we had to keep our eyes open wide wide cus we lk saw so many ppl. lol. down to suntec for kbox~ cus the tampines one was full already. -.-" diaos. rushed down. lol. got there. sang and sang~ left around 2.30-40 i think. to arcade. hahas. funfun~ =] spent quite a long time dere. to citylink. saw stefen! x)) and fredrick. -_-" i think it was him lars. =// saw irene ang and mark lee doing their programme. vivian lai and panlingling were dere too. as celebrity guests i think. =/ here comes the best one - I SAW JEAN NG!!! XDD nyahahahas - it was GREAT just seeing her. xD she was with her bf. i think. lol. wonderful birthday eve gift. x) mrt-ed to bugis. saw some 5n girls. and thiam kiat. and this ex-es bballer. AND. charleen, together with angelina and woonhwee. =D dat girl wanted ajisen. but the one at bugis was lk ULTRA-full. mrt-ed back to tamp. mall. saw wendong and sweesin. lol. the ajisen was having a long queue. -_-" ohwells- wanted to watch movie. but no shows that had good timing for us. wanted to go arcade, but the fella changing the $ went out. -_-" to cs to see if there were movies with good timing. but nope. =// dinner-ed at foodcourt. back to tmall for arcade~ xD heh. i so love her. we were shagged by the end of the day already lars. butwells- thanks so much, dear girl, for the wonderful day today. =))

err. i think dats all the peeps we saw today. lol. i THINK. heh. x)

nope, im so not gonna ask them. i dont wanna get nagged at/be suan-ed/be given that kinda freaky attitude on my birthday eve. if they HAVE the heart, they'll take the initiative. if they dont, even if im out with them, i'l hafta withstand all the craps. and im SO not gonna do that on MY BIRTHDAY. =)

jane- Friday, April 07, 2006


marur haji guresso nega shirhojyoda go
nunchiga obnun nan nur bochegiman hesso


nar saranghanda go marhanten onjego


blardy fullstop. =(


yesterday. it set a big fat fullstop onto everything. or rather, onto that denial that i .. probably never did get over. i.. dont know what to say. ive been denying it to myself. and.. i thought that ive already gotten over it. but. mebbe. i never did. i dont know.
NVMS.

ohwells- ive forgotten wad i actually wanted to blog about yesterday already. besides that full stop, that is.

suddenly i felt rather upset in class today. i dunno. it seems. im always the one doing these kinda stuffs. i mean. when have they EVER taken the initiative on these kinda stuffs. its ALWAYS been me. its been a very tiring birthday this time round. mebbe its jus cus. ive pinned too much hopes on everything. thus the outcome. its always like this. i should learn not to expect anymore. everytime i expect something, it'll turn out otherwise. everytime i have hopes on something, it'll turn out the other way. i shall not have hopes anymore. =( i think ive given up. on asking. i should probably learn to keep mum. ive known this for a long time. but i always fail to shutup. its taken a toil on me. i want a happy birthday. a truly happy one. but. is it gonna be possible? i dont wanna think. i dont wanna have hopes no more. :'(

mebbe its been too long a time since my tear glands worked, i think they feel lk making their presence known. once again. :(

jane- Thursday, April 06, 2006




=) i lk this. it looks very nice. =]]


owwwww. =(( my muscles are still aching. badly. from friday's training, den monday's. esp. my stomach muscles. hurts so much i even have difficulty standing up straight when walking. =( im actually a lil glad i didnt hafta take the napfa test yesterday. or go for today's training. =x
i completed the geog summary assignment. x) i shall be a good girl and start studying from now on. =D
ive finally uploaded the pics from suki. onto my com. =x heh. ohyah. i saw vindent ng the other day. he looks rather. comman,reali. =x dunno lar. mebbe i simply imagined him to look rather EXTRAordinary. =x im weird. forgetit.

i helped hasif and aslam pass their 2.4 on monday. im so proud of myself. and them. x))

oh. and. ive decided not to haf a birthday party. i'l just. er. see how lars. =/ i hope its gonna be a happy day. i hope. sincerely.

love,jane- Wednesday, April 05, 2006


school has been better these 2 days. (: budden agains. its onli been 2 days. =/ ohwells- their match was postphoned to 2mr. due to rain i ges. jiayou dear juniors. x) i promise you a lolly each if you win. x))
NAPFA test was absoulutely draining. x( had sore throat and headache after the whole darn thing. i was helping out lars. =// wenjie was being stupid. giving stupid comments RIGHT BEHIND MY BACK and then saying hes not talking to me and complaining im being extra when i simply give a reply. -___-" freak. to bedok for barchormee after that. xD got home. was simply shagged. =// so darn tired.

my mind is still on my birthday party~ x) budden again, im starting to reali feel its lk a lil childish? to have it at macdonalds. =x i dunno. =(

jane- Sunday, April 02, 2006


Your IQ score is 115!
You've got a very experiential way of learning and a strong mathematical mind and you have mastered the art and science of precision. That's what makes you a Precision Processor. For you, life is a series of equations. Your brain is naturally predisposed to intense mathematical acuity, so it's second nature for you to cut to the heart of an issue, to discover quick solutions while others get bogged down in unnecessary details. This allows you to communicate a variety of ideas to other people, so don't keep it to yourself.

hohoho. MATHS. im good at MATHS. yahrite. =//

im supposed to be very happy i this post, but somehow, i cant even bring myself to smile. =/ all thanks to that stupid fried prawn ball from katong. -_-" its so damn disgusting. its flooding my stomach now and i feel so sick. >( gahhh* boo to that. =(( also, my muscles are aching. all thanks to friday. and theres training 2mr. -_-" ohmanns. x( bahhh* butwells. on the other hand, i had a manicure yesterday~! xD i know its onli a short 2days, butwells- doncare doncare. i enjoy PAMPERING myself. xD suki trip was fab. x) just the little glitch that we had the wrong timings in our minds. thanks to misszhang. =x heh. but it worked out well lars. cus by the time we were to get to eat, we were all ULTRA famished. heh. and we bombarded the waitress with all our orders that i think she was also a lil blurified. hahas. =x it was a great afternoon spent with all my darlings. ((: went around pp afterdat with js. prine and tong ta look for my sis's bdae present. planned to go to the airport to pick her up after that, but it was too late lars. ohwells-
i got my mp3! x)) YAY. YAY. YAYYYYY. xDD but i still dont reali know how to work it yet lars. im so lazy to read the instructions manual. -_-"
went to temple for qingming today. no, its NOT qingming TODAY, i merely went for the praying session today. went to cs after that. ebase~ xD bigbig sale. but onli got a skirt and a set of something lk home clothes. =// wanted to get pants lars. =// ohwells- dinner-ed at katong. pp afterdat. to get bathing soap. heh. but was feeling so miserable lars. all cus of that stupid fried prawn ball. -_-" freak. xP felt much better after that mandrin and cranberry ice-cream. its great mans. ((:

ZHIYANG WON! XDD weeee~~! xDD

+l0tsa lurve+
jane- Saturday, April 01, 2006


im tired tired tired.
yesterday i was super shagged super tired super shagged super tired super shagged super tired super shagged super tired super shagged super tired.. ok. you get the point. =x
sports day yesterday. venus won. =( ohwells. its gonna be my last sportsday at es. i HOPE. hur. i ges theres just this small lil regret that i didnt run. AT ALL. for the past 4 years. ohwells. it was the same as rss lars. OHWELLS - =// went for ajisen with tong. chan. prine and yr after that. it was. FUN. x) and full of craps. hahahas. xD school today was -.-"zzz. SUPER SIANED. it was onli recess and i already felt lk it was time to go home. =x aiyoooo. slping in class again. =x but recess was fun lars. x) went over to 3e3 with meiyun ta find xinyi. xD home sweet home at 12.40. xDDD slept on the sofa. thunder woke me up. xD had tuition. rained heavily. dinner-ed then back to school for training. =)) was late. heh. but not too late lars. x) was supposed to do the pillar-to-pillar round. 0_0" *faints* almost died. =x felt so much vomitting. =// manymany thanks to shahida for being dere. x)) vomitted after walking 1round. =x there was an extra person lars. till now im still not sure why she was dere lars. but i noe shes called yuhan and she plays vball. =] shes a good defender mans. x)) partnered with her during the short game. =)) did the criss-cross modified before that. *CONCUSSION* -.-" kena whack on the head by ball. OMGs lars. mac-ed with mrleong. yr. prine. tong and diot after that. didnt go to siglap lars. *FAINTS* the stuffs we talked about. OHMANNS. hurhurhur. ended up getting my mum to fetch me home. lol. =x thats about it.
IM TIRED. SUKI TRIP TOMORROW~! XDD

+l0tsa lurve+
jane-