Tuesday, November 29, 2005


im back. just for this post.






























































i tried MANYMANY times. to upload the other pics. but. couldnt get them up somehow. bye ponpon. ): we'll all miss you. your blurness. your cute antics. your everything. (: tkcare.
love,jane- Monday, November 28, 2005


Emotions float to the surface at inconvenient times -- have a hankie handy today.
dats today's forecast on friendster. for me. ohwells- SHIT. i hate this. x(

emotional rollercoaster goin on now. i think i shall take a hiatus from blogging. and besides dat,im lazy. =x i shall be back when i finally feel like it. x(
as for the pictures,maybe when im free. and feeling better.

love,jane- Sunday, November 27, 2005












UPCOMING ATTRACTIONS.

lols` something liddat lars. x)
love,jane-

You scored as Blade. Thats right you are the booty kicking you cross me and I will stomp a mudhole in your butt type. Sexy and a great fighter with mad fighting skills Blade 67% Lestat 67% Armand 50% Marius 50% Deacon Frost 50% Dracula 50% Louis 42% Akasha 33% Angel 33% Spike 33% Whose your Vampire personality? (images) created with QuizFarm.com anyone care to tell me who the hell is dat guy? but it sounds pretty cool thO- x))

You scored as personality. Hopefully whoever you end up with will be attractive, but you choose your men based upon how funny they are and if you can talk to them on the phone for hours and feel like you only just started talking except that your hand is tired and your ear is sore from pressing the phone so close. An eyes woman 80% personality 80% A mouth gall 65% Abs woman 60% A crotch person 30% A chest chick 25% A butt gall 25% What are you attracted to in a guy created with QuizFarm.com

ges i reali am. x)

Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is a creative hotbed of artistic talent. You're always making pictures in your mind, especially when you're bored. You are easily inspired to think colorful, interesting thoughts. And although it may be hard to express these thoughts, it won't always be.

Saturday, November 26, 2005


victory.dreams.harmony.unity - indeed. suddenly im feeling like sucha failure. =/ i feel lk quitting when i cant make it. indeed,quitters never win,winners never quit. ges im not destined to be a winner. =x
true,i CAN encourage ppl. i know how to encourage others. but not myself. i can encourage joanne,tell her we're gonna make it together. i can tell others to not give up,i can tell others to push on,but even as i tell myself that,i dont beleive myself. cus deep down,i noe they are just words of encouragement. simply words. x( i forgot if ive ever blogged about this,but ohwells- i shall repeat it. suwei once told me not to give up. its the last race to the zonals next year. this,was because i told her i was still undecisive. bout wanting to stay,or leave. the fact is,i AM undecisive. i too,wanna be the strongest pillar of the team. i too,wanna hear praises,compliments from others for good defending. i too,love the feeling of intercepting someone else's pass. the sense of great accomplishment. i too,wanna hear mr teo saying-lucky our defence side hold,when the team's not on form. even a simple "good job,jane" is good enough for me. but,whether im up to it anot,i have no idea. whether i'll be able to hold on till then,i have no idea.

memories* our first ever GOLD medal. ((: all of the sec2s in 1 team. x)

age group carnival. 2004. 1st. U14 Girls. 1st. even if it was against sec1s,i feel proud of our achievement.

our 2nd medal.

year end carnival. 2004. U14 Girls. 4th. im proud of it. ((:

but. i dunno. im havin mixed emotions. gahh*
jane-


A simple friend has never seen you cry.
A real friend has shoulders soggy from your tears.

A simple friend doesn't know your parents' first names.
A real friend has their phone numbers in his address book.

A simple friend brings a bottle of wine to your party.
A real friend comes early to help you cook and stays late to help you clean.

A simple friend hates it when you call after he has gone to bed.
A real friend asks you why you took so long to call.

A simple friend seeks to talk with you about your problems.
A real friend seeks to help you with your problems.

A simple friend wonders about your romantic history.
A real friend could blackmail you with it.

A simple friend, when visiting, acts like a guest.
A real friend opens your refrigerator and helps himself.

A simple friend thinks the friendship is over when you have an argument.
A real friend calls you after you had a fight.

A simple friend expects you to always be there for them.
A real friend expects to always be there for you.
_____
this part was copied. =x credits to gua. hees* sori lar guagua. =x heh. butwells- how true is this man. esp.the last two. gahh* hate it. x(

niwaes,haf been LAZY to blog lately. hees* =x nuthin much i ge. piano on tues and slacking for the rest of the day. weds's trainin pretty much sucked. x( loadsa running lars. as usual. don wish to go into details- thurs.tuition. dens skyhigh with diot and pancake. x)) bean didnt come along thO- lols` heard he went for pool. hahas-was a great show thO- x)) mrt-ed back to simei. mom picked me up. dinner with da aunties. dinner with aunties is a tough thing. -_-" took a DARN LONG time to finally get the foods settled. -_-" ohwells- but it was aites i ges. nice dinner lars. =) dens to kallang mac with moomoo,mom,dum and moomoo's mum. =]] lols` home- fridae.trainin. was so afraid i'd be late. =x wasnt lars. =) *whew* errs. nuthin much interesting i ges. =/ did 1SET of suicide. x( bahhs* dinner. night trainin. games. the stacking of cones was rather dumb. =x she decided to change rules last min. -_-" rest of the night was rather. ... wells,lets just sae,i have no comments. =x hate dat drill. had to do with 2 sec1s. -_-" match. didnt play thO- homesweethome. x) i woke at 5++pm today. x) lols` didnt go out with GRANDaunty thO- x( she had conjuncvitis. i think dats how its spelt. =x gahh* now ive to wait for her to come back from the states. x( ohwells- poor her. =/

+l0tsa lurve+
jane- Tuesday, November 22, 2005


im back. x) and im rather estatic bout the things dat have happened these few days. x)) hrms- fridae's training. was aites i ges. =) was mr teo's bdae. lols` gua.pon2 and di0t came down round 8+-9. to join in the celebration. x) lols` was great fun lars. x) and prine and yr got cake smashed onto them. lmao. got home round 11++-12. tio gan. =x butwells- *shrugs* its onli HIM lor. xp mom didnt reali sae much. =p sat. didnt get to go out with my dearestGRANDaunty. x( she was down with flu lars. =/ ohwells- went out with di0t and the foods anyways. x) lols` KBOX KBOX~! lols` wanted to call di0t and gua onli- but gua didnt wanna go. =/ sowells. x) lols` LOADsa fun. x) but was rather sian-dening in the start lars. stupid foods didnt wanna sing. -_-" oh.and. i SERIOUSLY CANNOT listen to yequ lars. much less sing the sing with the lyrics. =/ i was tear-ing when dat stupid bean was singing. -_-" SHIT. i hate this. its all cus of that STUPID incident. x(( bahhs* wadever. session ended. stupid bean was hooked onto singing. -_-" lols` NEOS! muahahhas - spent a rather long time trying to drag the both of them into the neoprint shop. LoL` down to bugis- di0t wanted to watch their match. didnt go in the end. walked round bugis. x) bus-ed back. x)) sunday. nuthin much lars. went to ep. for lunch. dens popular. watsons. they had the richard clayderman piano comps dere lars! sooo "sat" can. 0_0 lols` the lil girl small2 nia. can play richard clayderman sia! lols` im VERY MUCH impressed. x) down to katong. nuthin much- today. didnt go for trainin. had dnt workshop/course. wadever. =) meiyun was LATE this morn. xp mrt-ed to bedok. dens bus-ed down. to tkss. was aites lars. but wells- fell asleep. =x lols` but my design was drawn already anyways! lols` ohwells- the instructors were rather kind. they let me sleep. x) lols` lunch time. stoopid sean gei kiang. -_-" make us walk and walk. -_-" end up went back to the foodcentre opp. dunman food centre. guys (teckjun.sean.freddie.weisheng) went for cup noodles from tha petrol kiosk. meiyun and i ate dere. =] model-making for the next half of the dae. was FUN lars. x)) onli thing was- i didnt see anyone i knew dere. =( was kinda hoping to see peeps i knew. *shrugs* ohwells- we found out from the instructors dat we werent supposed to go 2mr. -_-" called here and dere. finally got to mdm chin. her response? "oh,one day den one day lor." -__________-" meiyun was super pissed at her attitude lars. lols` i kept asking them if they wanted to go again 2mr. lols` go play with cardboard* hhaas- =x bus12 back. met the sports leaders on the bus. x) saw zhenxu at first. dens choonsoon. dens mrteo. lols` tj saw cheryl. x) went to the back. saw szeying dere as well. x) lols` went back to sch with them. was kinda hoping to see peeps still trainin. butwells- trainin ended ler. =/ *shrugs* walked home. x) slept. and i missed project runway! X( boo. ohwells-

pics up when im free. x) lols`
+l0tsa lurve+
jane- Friday, November 18, 2005


yay. watched harrypotter and the gob todae. with xinyi. x) tuition in the morn. ges wad- i FINALLY managed to stuff my contacts into my eyes! lols` but the show was. DISAPPOINTING. x( ohwells- seriously lars. some parts dat could have been longer,so short. dens there are some dat are TOO-long. -_-" sians. x( and. the theatre ambience was- blardy hell irritating. -_-" stupid kids yelling. throwing popcorn at each other. taking straws for wands. -_-" and BLARDYHELL. this STUPID ADULT was talking on his hp all the while lars. -_-" AND he didnt turn off his ringtone. -_-" i was lk-wth. -_-" ohwells- neos with xinyi! x) first time with my new hair and contacts~! lols` x) walked round. took bus home. =) saw evon and yingchiu under my blk! *squeals* xDD lols` missed them so. haf been missing evon these few days. was just planning to ask her out one of these days. lols` talked awhile. home for dinner. x) dens- BAD NEWS- i couldnt get my contacts out! omgomgomg. 0_0" lols` but i managed in the end lars. with help from dum thO- x) lols`
gahh* haf training 2mr. -_-" ohwells- *shrugs* oh,and. a caution to those who READ harrypotter and the gob. if you reali read the book,i ges you'll be rather disappointed at the movie as well- just go watch another movie lars. =)

+l0tsa lurve+
jane- Thursday, November 17, 2005


SHIT. was just looking at the previous post. the one with pics of my long hair and short hair. im starting to miss my long hair now. X((
jane-



has been a long time since tha last eye icon. niwaes,this is the LAST eye icon. probably will post the body ones if im free. =)

so... FARK. YES,its dedicated to dat GAY. no mentioning of names here thO- but i DO admit dat i,was the DUMB one who once again went onto his blog to look at the posts. yep. so there- XP

trainin. ohwells- *shrugs* i reali haf nuthin much to sae bout trainin. its been pretty much the same. but for todae and the last trainin,we didnt haf night trainin. livewire had match. ((: errs. ohyah. nanyanggirls softballers are trainin with our sch's softballers! lols` the girls are lk-woAh~ super arm strength. lols` oh,and. had a lil lil crash with prine today. hated the way she took the time for the darn chair drill. =x ohwells- *shrugs* forget about it. =) its over. ((: am currently looking FORWARD to going out with gua. x) kbox followed by esprit and redearth~! woots~! muahahhahas- xDD ohyah. and with my dearest grandaunty too. x)) ohwells- loads to look forward to and loads not as well. x( bahh* but lets not think about dat. x)) crapped loads with hongdou and diot at 201mac todae. nyehahhaha~ x) love it. x)

+l0tsa lurve+
jane- Wednesday, November 16, 2005


yay. okkies. so other den the part about me having a new hair style,i STILL think im going MAD. =/ the other day,i had 2 dreams. WEIRD dreams. in the first one,i dreamt of lixiang. the singapore nb team player,calling me on my handphone while i was in school. surprisingly,she was looking for millicent. =/ and dats not all. millicent was doing cool-down. -_-" weird- the 2nd one was about eileen. tay. the sec3 one. apprantly,i was on mum's car,headed to dunno where. saw eileen along the highway,near the beach. wearing our grey tee. she was kinda lk screaming lars. as in-destressing. hrms- i got off the car at dunno where. niwaes,i joined her. and so did melrick. =/ dens we walked to some blks. and some ppl were burning the joss paper kinda ting. =/ WEIRD.

i shall hereby announce- i am going MAD. =/

besides dat,sherman is just plain cute lars. hahas- was lk dying from the stupid chair drill when choir members were released. he walked past and he was lk-jiayou!- hahas- cute lars. aites. dats about it. =)

+l0tsa lurve+
jane-

i cut my hair today! x) lols` don ask me why. i simply decided to. =)

this is- BEFORE. its abit blur thO- =x

this pic's brighter. =)

i decided to flood my cam with my long-haired pics. x)

long-hair long-hair~

tied-up. =) ohyah. dats the nicenice necklace i got at rusty from pp the other day. i love it. x)

dats the length. goodbye long-hair. x(

hello short hair! x) lols` its darn short. -_-"

makes my face look SO round. x(

its actually charlene choi inspired lars. lols` x)

short-hair short-hair~
the following 2pics show the BIG difference. x)

BEFORE-

AFTER-

*BIGSMILE*

its so short lars. =/ i told my sis dat i was afraid if i simply tied it out and walked onto the streets,i might poke someone with my hair. =/ lols`

i tried tying 2pony-tails. x)

my face is round. x( ohwells- *shrugs* x)

love,jane-

Saturday, November 12, 2005


i think im going mad. seriously. my emotions are NOT under MY control anymore. =/ i was simply happily listening to the music on tha com's windows media player. den i decided to listen to "zai shuo yi ci wo ai ni". cus i havent listened to it since i downloaded it. and then i felt like falling in love again. i felt lk having someone for me to truly love. and not the kinda love dat i share with my babes. the kinda love i probably had for blkm. =x dens the next song was "shes so ugly". and suddenly i felt lk killing all the jerks on the world for condeming girls. or rather,deny them the praise they deserve for even trying to dress up. wadever. dens it was "yequ". i felt the kinda sadness. that kind of helpless-ness i felt when i had the quarrel with them. stupid yequ. i feel lk crying everytime i hear it. X( STUPID. im going MAD. =/

ok. besides the sudden madness i felt,ive been rather lazy to blog lately. so dats about it. oh,and. running around the foodcourt is NOT a good form of exercise. -_-" lols` i met lisa at tmart foodcourt yesterday! x) missed her so. ((:

+l0tsa lurve+
jane- Tuesday, November 08, 2005


i cant take it anymore. reali. i so totally suck. i hate my team-mate,but i must specify,its the one and only. i hate her so much dat i wish i could throw my shoe in her face,but im afraid of dirtying my shoe. xp so,other than not getting along with my team-mate - i have lousy defending skills despite being a defender. i legs refuse to move,i simply stand dere and look at the ball. -_-" i have shitty stamina despite being a sec3 senior. i dont haf the speed needed. i cant catch properly. i catn throw a pass properly. i can even jump for a rebound and get it for god'sdamnsake! X(( this sucks. and. i lack the chemistry with my partner. -_-" dats it. fine. how great eh? =/ i cant concentrate,i cant focus. and most importantly,i have lost my confidence. someone help me find it back? :'((


The Bottom Line
To achieve your goals, take your time. Rushing to the finish won't help you at all.
i just saw this on my friendster horoscope. wad good timing eh? =/

i reali cant go on anymore. REALLY. i asked myself,wth am i doing? im not giving my 101%,and im staying on the team. FOR WAD? i thought,since im not doing anything much constructive,why not just quit from the team? but then again,i thought. WHAT was it,dat stopped me from quitting a few weeks ago? WHAT was it,dat made me stay on a few years ago? the passion. the interest. the desire to excel on court. the teamwork. the team SPIRIT. and last but not least,the TEAM-MATES i have. x'(((
my determination is wavering so hard. its wavering lk it never did before. its threatening to break down. X'((

SOMEBODY HELP ME!! x'((

jane is crying- ))': Sunday, November 06, 2005


YAY. ges wad ive been addicted to.




KINDER SURPRISE! xDD

and it has DORAEMON on the box. lols`

my CHOCOLATE egg. xD

YAY. xDD

MY surprise in the CHOCOLATE egg. x)

DA XIONG! XDD lols`

i shared the last egg with dum. x) and the SURPRISE in it was a different coloured one. lols`

nothin much,just sharing my JOY. x)
love,jane- Saturday, November 05, 2005


ANTS. wth is with them? i mean,you could simply crush them when you go SMACK onto them with your palm. so wads dere to be so afraid of? i mean,if its cockroach,i can understand. cus its much bigger,and much faster. lizard,yarh. cus its bigger and appears when it feels lk it. but- ANTS? -_-" blardyhell* they were lk screaming and screaming and screaming and complaining and complaining and complaining. just because of ANTS. -_-" im so sorry i blew my top,but i REALI couldnt take it no more. ANTS. yah rite. ants.

+l0tsa lurve+
jane-