BET YOU DONT KNOW WHAT THESE MEAN RIGHTTT. muahahahha.
so my trip to ikea this evening actually brought me some knowledge, even though i still dont know what these mean. ^^ HAHAHA. yea. those were just some names that i bothered t remember. LOL. =D
SO. long awaited photos. =D my 18th was.. not exactly a blast, but it wasnt too shabby either. =D the night before, was a chalet at aloho loyang, with the SL ppl. even though i was never part of SL. HAH. lovelove anyways. ^^ and there was supposed t be a theme : Riot of Colours. =D
tong and tang with my 2 cakes. hah. ^^
=D
my dearest guagua & i.
the riot of colours. ;D
AND THEN.sw started taking lots of random photos. lol.
im just posting 2 though. heh heh. there are tons of vids as well. BUTTT. some, or rather, most of it, are kinda.. er. rated. HAHA. yea. i'll post them. when i've gone thru all and decided which of them to. =x
and then it was the lunch with my darling-est SKM mates the following afternoon! ^^
and yes, they custom-made a paper bag for me with me photo on it. LOL.
HAH. =x
our smiles all look kinda stone-d cause the waited took so long. T.T
and i got t meet up with dear funfun after that! =D
so for my 18th, many thanks t the ppl who were around, my sotong pai- tang, tong, chan, and js, sw, delyn, darran, zhenxu, yenkang, kimkok, michelle, wendy, laufun! =D many thanks as well, for the wishes sent via msg by grace, my dearest bitch queen, yunru, darling mrs lee and jamie o, quek, pandar, moomoo, as always-my 78years pal, ricky, donna-karen, ernie, phileo, dear cicak, and surprisingly, even my fellow keeper. ^^ and the many msges thru friendster, tagboard and whatnots, theres sj, my hug-buddy, hanjie, my tarzan, benj cheah, hs, udang, hot peenk, syaz, fazri, and also, surprisingly, aunty shila! xD hahas. manymany thanks t the family as well. =D
yes, this post took long enough, but its here anyways. :)
and btw phileo, Dusty did look like a soft toy. LOOK! ^^
my baby and his pals.
how are you baby? i haven't picked out your photo for the aunty yet. initially i planned t use the one i used when you first appeared on my blog, but dum said it looked blurrish. =( ohwells. i think i'll just pick one out today, later on. i've been wearing black this week. i tell bitchqueen, mrs lee and mich that its cause im in a mourning mood. and its true. i've pretty much recovered when im around other people, but when im alone, thats when you just come into my mind. i miss you baby. oh, i was sooo tempted t buy this kids sticker book the other day cause there was a grey bunny on it that looked so much like you. heh. i didnt in the end cause i figured it was only 2 photos, and 12.80. =/ not worth it right. hah. mugen seems t be missing you too, baby. mugen's been kinda.. different lately. dum says its cause shes just growing, but i know. she misses you baby. and shes been scratching a mighty lot lately. we might have t bring her t the vet soon. i miss you so badly baby. i hope you've been great. :) loves. ps. i think i've a phobia of the tampines swimming complex area now. cause it all happened that day. too quickly. =(
oh. auditions today were kinda.. okay, but slightly crappy as well. sigh. i just hope i get one of the lady-in-waiting roles. =/ and another thing. i seem t be losing my voice. again. ROAR. why do all the bad things come at once.
love,jane- tell me what this is, baby. this feeling of wanting it t get away, but wanting it t stay.
Dusty baby, mommy is so sorry. Mommy wants to say sorry to you sooo friggin' badly for not being observant enough. for allowing such a thing to happen. for not taking good enough care of you. for indirectly causing this. for everything. Mommy misses you so badly, baby. Mommy misses your touch, your soft fur, your stone-ing. Dusty baby, my little rock, my puipui, mommy hopes you're in a better place now, that such a fate would not befall on you again.
love always, mommy.
ps. baby, you've left Mugen behind. she's so lonely now, but mommy will make up for it. Mommy will play with Mugen whenever she can, to try and take your place.
a million thanks to cockroach for being there. for telling me all the stories. for cheering me up that slight bit. of course not forgetting, my dearest sister, for being there, for paying the bills first, for never blaming or judging me for what happened, and for playing puppets with me. :) i love you. my jamie, for cheering me up with that heart attack. mymrs lee, for asking, for being concerned. hafiz, for the parrot story. it helped. just that slight bit, but it did. sharil, for being so warm-hearted about the jane-fund. my moomoo, for the msg. it meant a lot. jamie, for at the very least, looking concerned. mom, for that pat on the shoulder, and for being concerned.
thanks a million to all of you, for making my day feel less gloomy. for cheering me up. for letting me ease the pain. i'm much better in the day now, but every little thing brings memories back. i am devastated, but things have turned out this way, and i have no choice but to accept.
AND YOU. i have no thanks for you. besides the car rides. other than that, shame on you. shame on you for being so unsympathetic. you have NO RIGHT to say that i am being too emotional/sentimental. i am, however tough, still a human. and just cause you can accept not being human to your pets, i can't. just as you were saying, you've been thru it all, so why can't you show a little more concern towards your own fucking daughter?! why, why must you bring it up all over again when my emotions have settled down. why, why must you rub it in with all those fucking useless comments of yours?! really, the best thing you can do, is to just shut up. upset as i am, you have brought out the anger in me. all those snide comments, whether delibrate or not, are NO HELP AT ALL, and i HATE you for that. one last thing, im not being over emotional towards my darling baby. i'm just being human. so SHUT UP.
love,jane- love, bring me some pixie dust tonight. not forgetting all the faith and trust in the world.
Presenting, her highness, Dusty Chia PP! xD (what pp means, for me t know, you t find out. :P)
i know. i've been procrastinating on my birthday post. and manymany other photos. SOON!really! :D heeee*
but with the arrival of my baby, it means, no more online shopping. no more good food whenever i feel like it. no more splurging. no more treats. no more spending on rubbish. less "me" time. :(
you're gonna tell me my nails are nice. i. don't. care.
my shiny shiny nails that are matching with my pouch and my wallettttt! xD muahahahhaha. xD
thats the left.
and the right. :D
okay. point aside. i feel kinda deprived. like my days are sooo friggin' packed with work, work, work, work and more work. =( and my days all kinda depend on how my stupid shedule is like. roar. i feel so restricted. =/ oh and they are like FINALLY employing. HAH. its so amusing i swear. after the 3 kiddos of a cousin left, then the pc hafeez, to the Q, then the H. the last to leave were brown cow and bernard. and many others before them that i've missed out of course. the poor inventory's down to 3. and i swear they are like effing stressed up to their necks. poor dom. poor no binc. poor shah. =( latest i heard, rafiee is leaving too. =( just makes me feel like leaving all the more. esp. when the jc batch are leaving soon as well. cause then the mrs lee-nigella-jamie team will breakup, we'll lose the 2 queens, my dearest cicak, donna-karen, and just today bargain boy was telling me hes not staying for long as well. :( SIANNNN. just makes me feel all the more like leaving. but then if i leave, ima gonna have t depend on teaching for a living. which i dont want to. the way that the uncle treats teaching, i dunno man. i SO disagree. to open a music school, wouldnt the main motive be to teach people? shouldnt the motive be to spread the love for music, rather than use it as a business? i mean yea, you would have to think about the business, but if the kid just isnt cut out for it, or the kid is just too young, shouldnt we tell them the truth, and let them decide again? sigh. this sucks. i really dont wanna teach amaan anymore. hes a friggin' 4-year-old. JUST LET HIM HAVE HIS HAPPY CHILDHOOD LARH. roar. i dunno. im kinda disgusted. sigh.
back to what i was talking about anyway, as i was saying, i've t depend on the freakin' shedule t be able t plan my own days, when they asked for a month's shedule anyways. WTF. irritating effing asses. >:( because, for those who don't know, yours truly here, is gonna turn legal next wednesday, and she would like t be able t plan her days ahead so that she can date people out. people whom she feels she has neglected for so long. people whom she cherishes very much and holds dearly and close t heart.
ahhhhhhh. this stinks.
if only everyday can be like that.
love,jane- why is the world not made of faith, trust and pixie dust? -
OK! ^^
