seriously. and you ask me why i don't like to tell you things. WHICH thing have i EVER EVER done, that you have NOT questioned. from wayyy before, during my pri school days, you questioned me on my homework, but thats alright, every parent does that. till my sec school days, you questioned me on my cca. on why i needed to be so committed when YOU yourself were from a sports team in your younger days. you questioned me on whether im studying hard enough or not when I was obviously trying very hard. till my days in VE. you questioned my job, you questioned me as to i knew what i was doing. on the outside you seemed to be so nice, encouraging me and all, acting the victim cause she was blaming you and all. saying you don't reject it at all, WHEN YOU DID NOT MEAN IT AT ALL. okay. its not fair to say you didnt mean it. but IF you DID mean it, it certainly didn't show. then were my days when i was retaking my Os. once again, you questioned me as to whether i was working hard enough or not. you questioned my decision on going out to study. then it was my days in borders. its obvious you don't agree with borders. or rather, you just don't agree with your sister. you didn't question my decision, at least not in front of me, but its obvious you're still reluctant. up till now. im trying to learn to be independent yo. to earn my own keep. you have to question my every move. you have to question my every decision. you have to question my job. you make stupid comments that you don't realise are hurting me so badly. you make stupid comments as if im really that dumb to not be able to watch out for myself. you say retarded things to make it out as if i dont know what im in for. GODDAMMIT IM 18 THIS YEAR! i know 18 is not very old, 18 is still a kid, in fact, the only thing that changes is that im legal. thats all. but whether or not im 18, I HAVE A MIND OF MY OWN DAMMIT. I KNOW HOW TO MAKE DECISIONS FOR MYSELF. I KNOW HOW TO WATCH OUT FOR MYSELF.
im pissed as it is, what with all the crap going on with my travelling, with my results, with my applications, with the lack of rest and all that. JUST SAVE ME ALL THAT CRAP!seriously, get a life. i know you care, i know its cause you have the responsibility to, but really, im drowning here hello! im suffocating. i know i've been a lucky kid with lots of freedom since young, but if you're really giving me that freedom, then please DON'T take it back by questioning my every move and decision.
I hereby declare. SWEENEY TODD IS AWESOME. its like so good it hurts. haha. to be honest i wasnt impressed at the start. i guess it was cause i was kinda expecting another one of those regular musicals like Hairspray, Moulin Rouge or Chicago etc.,but i was so wrong.Sweeney Todd: The barber of Fleet Street has this ability to haunt you even after the show. Towards the end of the show, there was this unknown heart-wrenching feeling that i couldn't explain. it was such a tragic tale. and to tell the truth, Johnny Depp sings really well! and that boy acting as Toby, has a wonderful voice. The blood spurting out and all freaked JS out a lil at the beginning while i found it rather amusing. haha.=X and that moment, that split second when we all thought he would do it to Joanna, that moment of fear. Overall, it brought out so many emotions, even this indescribable tugging at the heartstrings. and those songs that did not impress at the start, well, they grew during the show and till after the show, they totally haunt you. Conclusion here, Sweeney Todd: The Barber of Fleet Street , SO ROCKS. go watch it if you're able to! xD
oh btw, Happy happy 19th, my dearest Miss Zhang! :D
love,jane- because once you get so used to the darkness,brightness can be so frightening.
just a random thought after looking at jsen's friendster photos and thinking of the last time i met victor, mohsin or anyone else.
school rules really should be enforced on some people all their lives.
or they'll do weird things to themselves. =x
just one more thing. parents of kids in borders should really reflect on themselves. big time. fancy allowing their kids to trample all over the books and saying things like, "everyone is doing that what." when told off. get a life yo. arseholes.
i'll fling my kid 20m away from me if they ever do such inconsiderate rubbishy things.
okay. i'll face it. im lazy. but that has always been isnt it. haha. i shall just run thru the new year resolutions. =p
so, for a recap. last year my resolutions were:
- watch every public performance Sebastian Tan makes. =D *wahahhahhahas. =p* *FUFILLED!* - continue with the thing I've already started with, and hopefully finally solve it, for all his performances nonetheless. xD *FUFILLED!* -START working hard for my grade 7 exams. *Successfully gotten my grade 7 cert, so, FUFILLED!* -START being more dilligent in V.E.*whenever i'm there. i still don't think its advisible for me to go during weekends, or bring work back. it'll just induce naggings. =/* *ahem. UNFUFILLED. i quit. =x * - STOP being such a slacker. =x*err. half fufilled? heh. * - START smiling more. =xx *i realise i smile rather little, esp. when im alone, cause i would look pretty much lk a retard, smiling to myself. but whatever. =p* *half fufilled* - START saving MONEY. *FUFILLED. for the time being, just cause im saving for my trip. haha.* - START doing some meaningful things for the society. things like volunteering. =D *UNFUFILLED* - START contacting more friends. (: *UNFUFILLED* - START working out more even without training. *UNFUFILLED* - START getting more involved in SRT lessons and not always think so much and feel awkward. *FUFILLED!* - DO stop bullying meiyun and offending her with her god. =x *sorry lah. i cant help it if im mean. =x* (uh! but that comes with a condition too. PROVIDED she STOPS talking to me about her church stuffs, and stops trying to psycho me or introduce her church friends to me and tries to get me to church. =.=" if she does all that, then im sorry, she'll just have to suffer the consequences. choices have consequences. remember? xP) *FUFILLED!* (meiyun you're allowed to protest if you think otherwise! =p) - DO start saying "bye" on the phone only after the one i'm talking to does so. (i realise i always say "goodbye" even when the other party hasn't even finshed talking. how rude. tsktsk* x( )*half fufilled* - find a boyfriend. T.T *UNFUFILLED*
okay. my resolutions for this year :
- Start smiling more. yep, the same, but i think i really need to. - SAVE MONEY. - Curb the temper yo. (its hard, but yea. i'll work on it. =p ) - Start fufilling my pay-day resolutions! haha. - Exercise / Workout moreeee. i really need to. =x - Start sleeping earlier. i need the sleep yo. - Cherish the family, and all the friends. because i think its important to.
okay. that should be it. not too many, i can't cope. HAHA.
HAPPY CNY EVERYONE! =D
as said, am prolly not gonna do the annual post thing anymore. lazy. =x btwbtw. this vid is damn cool. watch!
oh. sorry for the very colourful post. it looks rather messy. haha. but whatever lah. =p okay, im outta here. toodles!
Jane is feeling sleepy and rather tired. Jane thinks this is due to the fact that she only had about 3 hours of sleep last night (as usual) , and that she was sick yesterday. Jane feels quite bored of work and feels like doing nothing more than sitting at home and rotting, but Jane need the moolah cause Jane is going to tw with Adeline in March. Speaking of which, Jane hopes they will stick to the plan because Jane doesn't think she can take another blow of disappointment. Jane is supposed to be working now, but cause she feels rather sick of primary schools, she has decided to slack and blog for now. Jane is thinking if she has any other things to blog about for now. oh yea. Jane's nose feels very raw due to excessive contact with tissue cause of a runny nose. and Jane's quite sad about it. Cause it looks ugly, and it doesn't feel alright.
hello all! much to the dismay of some, i'm still well-alive and kicking! =D albeit a lil sick. =x
have been busy with the usuals, work. hah. long post coming up, i expect. hah. its CNY yo. and i've decided, since i didnt do anything for new year, i'll post my annual post on chinese new year. =D
i really wanna upload my photos dammit. but the usb's nowhere to be seen. first my comb, now my usb. dammit dammit dammit.
im lovin my borders mates more and more yo. but hating certain people more and more as well. hah.
ok i should stop. this post's only purpose was to report that im still alive and kicking. so there.
