Just Dance.

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

the photos from the saturday event.

fizah, wendy, lijun and i on mr siew's lorry. xD

the pink and the blue(s). phileo, me, yanhao, singa and friend. =D

went to CA with tang and js after that. drank a magarita and seriously got a lil tipsy. =x

tang, js and me. =)

its my 531st post on imiee. =D

okay. RETAIL THERAPY. i seriously need it. =(
and i was just telling lijun and michelle bout how im already looking forward to payday less than 2 weeks into work. =/ GRAHHHH* tell me how im gonna survive the remaining 2.5weeks. x(

and tell me why, tell me HOW to quit addictions, cravings.
no, not ice-cream cravings, not smoke addictions. PEOPLE cravings, PEOPLE addictions. i've been telling myself over and over again to forget about it. to not think about the impossible. to just give up. to not think too much. to face reality. but i really can't. im forcing myself so much it hurts. it hurts terribly. and everytime when i think, i feel so guilty because i know i must, simply must give up, and stop these thoughts, but i just cant. x( tell me what to do, please.

and nowadays, im so afraid to look forward to things. because everytime i allow myself to think about all the good things that would happen, something else would definitely come up, spoiling EVERYTHING.

i need retail therapy. i need payday. i need happy food. i need happy thoughts. i need happy things to happen. and really, i need you. please?
i should stop this post already. its making me feel so blue. =(

Love,jane-
tell me why this is happening. i've failed. terribly.

Friday, May 18, 2007

a brief summary of what they did at cafe cartel. xD

me and sj.

we had our nails done that day. xD mine's the purple.

fine. its not clear. i also only realised after it was posted. =/ but anyways lah. =p

and so THAT was what i did on the 2nd of may. oh, i went back to collect my cert on that day also. =D

work has been alright. so far. cause fizah's still around. i shudder to think whats gonna happen if shes NOT around. =( and i almost fell asleep today morning. =x
i had something to blog about. but i forgot what. HAH.
OHYA. yesterday morning on the train was so damn funny. there was this guy in front of me holding the handle (the round ones), he was holding 1, then 2, then he realised i was behind him, so he resumed back to holding 1. after a while, he went back to 2 again, and, after realising that i was behind him, he went back to 1 again. i think the cycle continued for a few times. was funny lah. HAH. =/
i had something else to blog about. but i really cant recall. fine.
ok. time to slp then. =x

Love,jane-
i'm trying hard, do you know that? would you care?

edit

ohya! i recalled alr. heh. i realised that recently, i've been quite dependent on my mp3. and not only that. i'm starting to realise that my moods switch with the music. lol. which is quite amusing, really. because an emotional song like "Blood in the streets" could be playing this minute, causing me to feel all emo and upset, the next minute i could ~~hear seb tan's voice~~ be listening to something like mulan's "honour to us all" and feel so amused and happy again. isnt it amusing how moods can be so easily affected? hurr. but i guess its ok since im alone lah. hah.

Love,jane-
tell me how, how can i stop that addiction, that craving.

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

miss zhang and i at changing appetites.

the super yummy chesse oysters, mashed potatoe and pretty cheesecake. =D

prine tang at the lefthand corner, sotong, js, and me.

its irritating how the nice photos are always blurred. x(

see what i mean. T.T

the 4 of us. (:

tong, me and js. credits to prine tang.

seriously, all 4 of us are in the photo. HEH.

prine tang and me. xD

when the 3 of us went mad. xD

THAT, was how i spent labour day some 14 days ago. =D

There is a litte truth behind every "just kidding".
A little curiousity behind every "just wondering".
A little knowledge behind every "I don't know".
And a little emotion behind every "I don't care".

-credits to lynn.

i've finally plucked up enough courage to change my blogsong. maybe, just maybe. i might have gotten over him on that night already. but nonetheless, hes still charmer no.1 on my charts. (:
it takes a long time for the song to load though, so pls be patient. =D
seriously, i wasnt feeling exactly happy just now, but after posting the photos and looking at them, they just cheer me up. =D
for some reason, the girls never fail to make me smile. (:

was at skm doing some work yesterday, and i've papercuts all over my left palm now. =( and to make things worse, the plasters are starting to itch. x(
and and! i actually went to help them clear their storeroom. i dont even clear my own bedroom. =x
so anyways, mothers' day was not too bad. got mom some flowers, a cup and a card. AND, i made her dessert. =D (which looked good but didnt taste exactly fantastic. =x)

theres work at skm again tmr. wish me luck. =/

xinyi, i hope you're doing fine. havent seen you in a long time. meet-up sometime soon okay? and if anything comes up, pls dont forget that im just a phone call away. (:

Love,jane-
all my love to you. <3

Sunday, May 13, 2007

yesterday was a bad bad bad day. it sucked. ok. maybe just the evening part of it sucked. but it was enough to spoil EVERYTHING. x(
note: they ARE trival things, but when too many trival things start to irritate you, it just SUCKS.

so firstly, on my way home on the train, i was thinking of what to wear for yesterday night's concert. i wanted to wear a skirt, but i realised i had no heels to match them. fuck.
secondly, i had a missed call which i couldnt call back, cause they said that the line was closed already. was damn worried that it might have something to do with the opera role. fuck.
then i decided on a blouse, but when i got home, i realised that i couldnt find the belt that goes with the shirt. it would look ridiculous without the belt. fuck.
next, after finally being able to wear what wasnt in my mind at first, i couldnt find my heels. fuck. and i had to search all over the place for it, before realising it was on the rack all the time, but in a plastic bag. =.=" double fuck.
then all was well until the show.
i couldnt see one of the parts cause i was blocked. (i was sitting in the corner lah.) fuck. damn irritating.
then i accidently deleted something that i wanted damn damn damn bloody badly. FUCK.
i realised the ushers might have realised what i have been doing. fuck.
then i felt all stuffy, when the damn drama centre is so damn big. which was when i decided to go out and have a walk, and started feeling ill all over. fuck.
worse thing, i couldnt concentrate properly on the show, and enjoy it throughly because i felt so sick. FUCK.
or rather, it was seb tan! and i wasnt actually enjoying it as much as i would've liked to. =( FUCK.
then after the show there was an autograph session. in which i wanted a photograph. but BLOODYHELL, the camera showed that i couldnt take or delete any photos because something like the memory card was protected. FUCK!
had to make do with moomoo's hp cam, but the photo, really wasnt nice. =( fuck.
and then while i was cursing and swearing at the guy who caused my memory card to become like this (i sent it to do some photo developing lah), i realised that all i had to do was unlock the damn card from the side. fucked-up.

it was such a fucked-up evening, that i would've throughly enjoyed. FUCK.
and to top that off, i couldnt sleep today morning. i wanted to get up around 12, but i got up around 8+ instead. after finally going back to sleep, i got up again at 11+. FUCKKKKKK.

i really think something is wrong with me. =( dammit fucked-up.

now would you, reading, like to guess how many fuck(s) i actually used in this post?

if you actually went to count, you're wrong anyway. cause i said GUESS.

jane-
you seemed so distant. =(

Saturday, May 05, 2007

the FEMALE dressing room.

the MALE dressing room.

ME! =D i love the dressing room tables and mirrors. ESP THE MIRRORS WITH THE LIGHT BULBS! xD (but sadly, most of the bulbs werent working man. lol.)

the actresses' stuffs.

SHORT&SWEET. thats the program book, as well as the photo on the poster. =D

the girls from "Out of Control" (one of the plays).

Rina and Rosemarie from another one of the plays. =D

Anton, Me and Jared. both of them were in "Just the Three of Us".

Elizebeth, Janet, Gloria and Serene. The girls from "10'000 Cigerettes", as well as the runner-up winners for the best actress on Gala Night. (:

Candice and Serene. the girls from "Fat". (yes, Serene was in 2 plays, 10'000 Ciggs. and Fat)

the couple from "What if it's Bad News?".

AFTER SHOW RECEPTION

Janet, Gloria and Me.

Me and Candice.

Jo and I.

Me and Leonard. (He and Jo were in the same play, and both of them, being very nice, gave all the cast and staff a shot glass each on the last day of the show. xD)

yeaa. so THAT was my experience from Short&Sweet. it was basically a festival where there were 40, 10min plays. mine was in week 1, with the ppl in the photos up there. it was fun, and unforgettable. (: met some great ppl there. =D

have been doing Front-Of-House (basically ushering) for A Midsummer Night's Dream the past 2 nights. I'm doing it for the whole run i guess, besides 19th and 24th. its been not too bad so far. met a few nice ppl and stuffs. so if you're free, do come and watch the play. it isnt too bad. ;D oh, and. if you dont mind doing voluntery work to help out as FOH, let me know! we're seriously under-staffed. =/
OH! and i saw tingjun today! xD apprantly, shes my friend's friend. hahaha.

was watching "Remember The Titans" on ch5 just now. damnit. those kinda shows really make me come up with goosebumps, and tear. but somehow, i just love them. lol. and i seriously miss that feeling of victory. i miss playing netball. =(

OKAY. its 4.59AM dammit. =/ i still have tuition later on in the afternoon. DIE. T.T

p.s. if you look closely enough, all the subtitles for the photos were filled in with the colour of at least one of the casts' clothes. xD (yes, i'm bored. =x)

Love,jane-
all the regrets in the "if only(s)", but what can i do?

edited
for some reason, the photos just turned out with LARGE space below them, and i cant seem to change that. =(

jane-