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Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Last year, SRT’s The Young Co. enthralled audiences with one of Shakespeare’s best loved romantic comedies, Love’s Labour’s Lost.

This August, the graduating class will bring you Arthur Miller’s tale of suspense and drama, The Crucible – one of the most performed plays in the world.

Arthur Miller’s The Crucible - is a powerful and timeless depiction of how intolerance and hysteria can tear a community apart. It was made into a film starring Daniel Day-Lewis and Winona Ryder.

A group of teenage girls gather in a forest one evening and are involved in an innocent conjuring of love potions in order to catch the eye of the young men that they desire. Guilt at being caught in the act drives them into a frenzy of accusations and they are forced to tell lies that Satan has invaded them. In a moment of jealousy, Abigail, one of the girls involved, claims Elizabeth (the innocent wife of a man she is infatuated with and with whom she had an affair) is a witch. As the other girls pick up on the trick and start naming anyone they resented, lies and rumours spread among the deeply religious community and anyone opposed to the trials is denounced as a witch.

Through their hysteria and false accusations, 19 innocent townsfolk are put to death as witches.A tale of witch hunts, religious persecution, sexual revenge and social hysteria centered on the true story of the horrifying witch-hunts that occurred in Salem, Massachusetts at the end of the 17th century, this gripping play is a must-see for students and anyone who loves suspense and drama.

Simply put, this is a tale about witchcraft, in the 17th century.
Which, based on context, could also be put into the world of politics in the modern-day society.

Synopsis aside, the set for The Crucible could be described as one of the most treacherous for the cast, but definitely breathtaking for the audience. Furthermore, with intensive rehearsals going on, and all the hardwork that the cast have put in, you're ensured an evening of unease, gripping spells, heartwrenching moments, and above all, first-rate entertainment.

So come, come join us for the show and we'll make sure this is one act that will haunt you and leave you spellbound.

and obviously, above all, I'M in the show!

hahaha. shameless, i know. but whatever.

oh btw. do let me know if you want tickets, because i can get them at 1-for-1 rates! :)

love,

jane-
because we're worth it, and you know it. ;)

Labels: life's too short for lousy food.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

So today evening, i was feeling terrible, yes, like with a capital T.
what can i say? i'm sick.

yes, finally beaten by my own immune system. T.T yes friend, you were right, i needed a break. BUT. i still can't find a space to breathe, yet. i'm trying to though.

so anyways, my mind was racing. yes, literally racing, dashing through traffic lights and speeding. no idea why. think im at this point where im so tired that my block in my system breaks down and all those random thoughts come flooding out. GUSHING out.

i was thinking of how it would've been. if i'd gotten knocked up ala my sec4 classmate. would i be happy with a kid now instead of complaining that i dont want a boyfriend?

then i thought of what would happen if i REALLY did happen to get a boyfriend. would i be like some of my friends, who ditch their friends for their love, or like some others who ditch love for friendship? would i be the ultra stuck-on-you kind, or the i-dont-even-feel-like-i-have-a-boyfriend kind? would my relationship with the boyfriend be love-hate like a few couples i know of, or the super lovey dovey mushy kind? im curious, but not anxious to know.

then i regained being upset. (i know, sounds damn odd, but whatever.) i became upset again. because woonyong (my short&sweet M10 co-actor)'s play in the english top 30 had gotten in. i'd just imagined, what if that were us, instead? then i thought of how the team that actually got in, was not exactly excited/happy about it and i felt like, WHY NOT LET US HAVE THE CHANCE!? i'm so sore about it you absolutely CANNOT imagine.

then i realised. i THINK i'm sick. i didnt actually know, it was just this nagging headache, making me feel like my head was gonna explode. then anyways. for some reason yet unknown, i was thinking of how my funeral would be like.

i would like my funeral to be.. white, with hints of silver. not the OTT garish silver stuff i oh-so-love, but the classy kind. the little hint, that would catch the side of your eye, yet not make you feel uncomfortable.
i want it to be set abit like.. a wedding, so to say. with 2 rows of chairs, then the coffin/altar in the middle. i dont mind if we do away with all that yellow/red/green/colourful stuff that chinese always have. i dont mind. but i would still want joss sticks. HAHA. i love the smell of it. weird, i know. whatever. :p

i would want to be properly made up, looking so very pretty. i want a nice dress. somewhat like the one i had for agamemnon. long, pretty, flattering. :) i would want my nails to be nicely done up. DUH. hmm. probably something bright or sparkly, ala the normal jane style. :D haha. at this point, silver, neon pink or neon yellow all sound good. but i suppose, that would be a job i'll leave to my sister. cause she always knows the correct things to match. :)
i dont want to be wearing my specs, but i would like it to be in the coffin as well. just so i know that if i reach out, it'll be there. im insecure that way.

my "guest list". i would like to include my whole family. yep, probably even the ones that i get so annoyed with. but maybe not my grandma. seeing her cry so hard once, is enough to last more than a lifetime. spin up a lie. tell her that i.. decided to go overseas to study and stay there for good or something. - i wanna see my cousins, the evil ones from my dad's side, including benji, jolene, jasmine, and them all basically. my aunts, and the lil evil dearling. from my mum's side, my cousins, again. my aunts, my uncles, nah, maybe not the WHOLE family needs to be there, but wells. its like CNY innit?

i want my friends to be there. all my teammates- guagua, suwei, jinshu, mr teo, mdm teo, millicent, kelly, pandar, sotong pai,

my 809 dears- aisyah, charlotte, stef, jean, michelle, lyn, dom, hairil, doreen, sharil, lina, lisa, siti.

my srt darlings- nikko, gilly, andrew, daniel, lois, livi, rishi, audrey, sue, victoria, eunice, clara, fiona, adeline, chanel, kusu, aly, dan, vana, and if he would, chad.

all my ex-classmates/teachers from primary school- elaine, laufun, kingston, miss sng, joey ho, and joey chen, binghua, minhui, jieshen, jiongrui, shiyun, yenkheng, xianbi, mrs lucy tan, mdm chong, marianne (if she still remembers), weiliang, dominic, hanyang, xinying, chingkee.

my secondary school mates- zhenxu, yana, xinyi, qijie, shila, miss sim, yenkang, kimkok, evon, kailiang, derek, sili.

and of course, the people who made a difference in my sec 4 life- meiyun, saddiq, shujuan, hasif, gavin, weisheng, zhaokai, mdm chin, mdm chai, and alright, possibly jason and jerome.

then my skm mates,- mich, chiman, wendy, lijun and maybe aunty fauziah.

my band. the people who were with me for such a short time, yet brought along so much- kental, mat, beng, and bernie.

sim mates- yiwen, claresta, lucas, sam, ian, tabi, res, aisyah, faz, and yea, probably just that. never did get along with the world.

and all the random people who can't be classified like this, my sma friends, all the short&sweet people, all the people that i've met through some sort of weird coincidence.

then the people who've known me all my life,- dha gang. lulu, dj bob,
plus i'd want the auntys to be around to accompany my mum anyways.

super long guest list innit. hah. but anyways, i dont want them to be sitting around and crying. i want them to all have a little sparkling wine, a beautifully decorated white table of buffet with my favourite food, and a little speaker's corner-look alike, for people to talk about me. HAHA. i still want some glamour. :p
talk about how i made a difference in their lives, how i've managed to contribute in my little way, how people think i'm mad at times, how i was me.

and yea, a little bit of tears are alright, but no wailing please. smile! be happy that i've been set free. somewhat. and know that i'll always be there, no matter what. :)

so yea. if i EVER pass away sometime, please let people know that this is how i would like my funeral to be. haha.

and then the random thoughts had to stop cause my head was really splitting, and. i'd reached class. HAH.

love,
jane-

i do it for love love love love;

Labels: I'm. NOT. strong. enough, realisations

Tuesday, July 07, 2009

dear friend,

i cannot. its not that i don't want to. honestly. just look at whats going on in my life. i will list them all out to you and you will see why i cannot stop.

im teaching, as you know. i have 2 students, taking, or at least im planning for them, to take their exam next year. and i cannot stop. because it is going to cost them lessons. they will not be able to cover enough before their exams.

im teaching tuition as well now. chinese tuition. hah. what did you expect. my girl is primary 6 this year, and taking her PSLEs. how to stop? i absolutely CANNOT.

im schooling. much as i hope i could just leave it, i can't. i've wasted too much time, retaking my Os, getting in and out of SIM, and finally settling here. i don't have any more time to waste.

im working. this is the one thing that i'm slightly more slack on. but still, i've debts to pay off. i've a life to keep up with. i CANNOT stop working! whos gonna pay for me?

im in rehearsals. my show is due for august. i cannot not go for rehearsals for goodness' sake! this means so much to me.

so yea. tell me how? its not that i don't wanna stop, really. its just.. i cannot.

i would love to as well, to just sit somewhere and stare at people the whole afternoon, i would love, of course, to go watch a play that i'll enjoy. i would love, to go catch up on all those movies that i've missed out on. just reading the afternoon away sounds like a great idea as well.

but all these, are luxuries that i cannot afford at this point.

aside for the fact that i would have to take time off matters, all of the above, or at least, almost all of it, is gonna cost me money. its the cruel truth, the brutal reality of life.

i know you're concerned, friend. and i really really thank you for that. because it is so rare in this day and society. because you let me feel this heartfelt concern which people neglect oh so often. because you actually care, and bother. because you're a friend.

so yea, i really really appreciate it, but at this point, this very moment, i cannot afford to lax, to slow down, to stop.

just to poke fun at you, no, believing in or having a religion at this moment, will not help. it'll take up even more of my time having to commit to a particular mighty being. ;)

love,

Jane
You need to slow way down and let others deal with the details today -- you're heading for burnout if you're not careful! It's not such a bad thing to take the day off and let the chips fall where they may.

- Astrology, july 6th, monday.
could be the reason why today seemed like such a wrecked day. :(

Labels: i need some skittles., Jane needs money. and a lot of sleep.

Monday, July 06, 2009

and so, we didn't get in.

the awesome cast of Short & Sweet M10, play 5, Subjective.

we were close. SO. FUCKING. CLOSE. TO MAKING IT!

the moment the results were announced, my heart just dropped on the floor. like literally. and can you just IMAGINE that feeling, of being so fucking upset, and yet having to smile and cheer for the group which got in.

it was a terrible terrible feeling. everything went well. till yesterday afternoon, when mom told me that she would've voted for team 3 had she "had a chance". no, she did not say that, but it certainly felt like she voted for my team, just cause its me. all the hopes just went downhill from there. confidence began to shake. and in general, i just felt that tinge of disappointment.

but still, there was hope. there was hope in the audiences' vote.

and we lost that as well.

the 2 guys were.. to say, less affected. alex said he'd expected it. and woonyong said he didn't think the script was strong enough.

but i know, that my heart just shattered. and shirlyn was equally upset. maybe more, maybe less. i don't know. i believe jacklyn was upset, disappointed as well. and obviously, kokchang was .. disappointed as well. pardon the repetitive words. i really cannot think of any other word now, cept' for disappointment.

shirlyn reckons we were trying to drown out the sense of loss and disappointment when we were at prince of wales last night. i agree. at least i felt like i was doing that.

seeing ruzaini and gilly, telling them i'd lost, that i hadn't been able to make it to the galas, i almost started crying.

because this year, somehow it just meant so much to me.

it was my first ever chinese play. i felt like we had such a big chance. we had a good placement, we had a good cast, we had a good director, we had so many advantages! the odds were fucking towards us! and we had to lose it.

the night before, when we had supper with kok chang, we were still happily planning how we would need to change positions for the rewind cause the stage at esplanade is different. we were still looking forward to it so much. we were still happily laughing away, confidence level high up. and we were proven wrong.

i thank all those friends of my co-actors, of my director, who came to support, and had voted for us. i thank all the other audiences for voting for our play, if they did. i thank all the other actors in the other plays, for such an awesome time backstage. i thank the other directors, scriptwriters, for joining in the fun and making this such an enjoyable experience.

Short & Sweet M10 this year, was truly, Short, and Sweet.

p.s. gilly, we need to talk soon, love. give me a call whenever.

love,

jane-

this will take my mind off you. at least for a while.

Labels: i need some skittles., I'm. NOT. strong. enough, photos

Saturday, July 04, 2009

i don't like you. for the attitude you're speaking to me in. i don't like you. for always speaking like someone who has "been there, done that", and always THINKING that you understand me. i don't like you, for your attempts at being funny, especially in the mornings when i'm so tired- ITS ANNOYING. i don't like you. for all that and more.

but i don't have a choice. it was destined.

and so now, in an attempt to explain to miss oxy and whoever else on why i think im never gonna get a boyfriend, married, or kids. and also, a reminder to myself.

1) Because it is too much of a commitment. i have school commitments, netball training commitments, drama commitments, teaching duties, work commitments, and all other random stuff that pop up all the time. do you really think i have time to go meet and entertain someone else when i barely have enough time for myself, my friends, my family?

2) because it is too much of a hassle to have to entertain another. i have one major annoyance at home which i have to entertain daily. YOU WANT ME TO GO LOOK FOR ANOTHER ON MY OWN ACCORD? you gotta be kidding me. and as i tell the world, if my other half turns out to be like my dad, i'd probably go jump off the building or something.

3) because it is such a waste of money. AS IF IM NOT POOR ENOUGH ALREADY? hello? knowing me, i don't really like being treated, having someone else pay for me. i know that i am capable of paying for myself, so why should i let someone else foot the bill for me? chivalry aside, i believe that male and female and NEVER be equals, but at least, you know, try? and yea. all those commercial scams of anniversaries, special occasions and all that. no thanks. costs more than it should.

4) Because i'm enjoying my freedom very much, thankyouverymuch. the mere thought of having to constantly reply to someone else's messages of "where are you?" or "have you had lunch?" and that rubbish, just turns me off. the need to report to someone else? i outgrew that when i graduated from secondary school thanks. besides, you're not my mum.

true, i agree that its always nice to have a shoulder to lie on, someone to hug, someone who would listen to you when you're down or annoyed, but really. FRIENDS. thats what friends are for. i have ample friends thanks.

5) and anyways, what makes you think having a boyfriend will solve the problem? when a couple are together, and one party ignores, or at least PRETENDS to ignore. or just pacify. what's the point, really? and all these little things, just build up. they accumulate, like dust bunnies. until one day when it has hit the brim, everything will burst out and that'll be the end of it. NO MORE. THE END. GAMEOVER. no point right.

6) because i'm scared. i would say i'm rather independent now. and im a insanely busy person. just consult my handphone schedule to know. so yea, i'm scared that i'll become too dependent on someone else. i'm scared that someone else entering my life is gonna break my momentum, i'm scared that another person will bring more trouble that good. and of course, i'm scared of the aftermaths. i've had enough of that thanks.

points 1-6, explains enough why i don't want a boyfriend, don't need a husband in the future?

onto kids. i've said it once, and i'll say it again.

7) kids these days are PLAIN ANNOYING. i have annoying cousins, i have annoying students. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. case closed.
there are SO MANY ways that they annoy me, i really don't know how long this post is gonna be if i really list them out. so to just name a few, kids running wild around, kids/teenagers becoming emo teens or ahlians and start taking photos and captioning them "i bitezzxxx", kids spouting vulgarities better than their own mother tongue, know-it-all kids. yea and those few, are killers on its own. need i say more?

SO THERE YOU GO, OXY. Reasons stated. happy now? hah.
its a post for you, a reminder for myself too. so that i never do fall into it.

anyhoos, SHORT & SWEET MANDARIN 10 IS STILL RUNNING! TILL THIS SUNDAY! if you're free and interested, PLEASE PLEASE MAKE YOUR WAY DOWN TO THE ARTS HOUSE AND GET YOURSELF A TICKET!
ticket sales have apparantly been really bad. :( we really need people to come watch, respond, and vote!
again, details, HERE.

DO COME AND WATCH! :D

love,
jane-
confused. i know i shouldn't be doing anything about this. but.. the heart is ruling over the mind. can i really pretend, and ignore?
heart is sore and achy. i know this shouldn't be. but your sense still lingers. i cannot ignore it.

Labels: i need some skittles.