Just Dance.

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

FARK* fark that STUPID MORONIC FARKER kelly. XP its not OUR aunty kelly,its dat blardy umpire. FREAK -

so we didnt get to go to the daisy tan carn afterall. =( went out with my girls instead. (: got CNY shoes. ((: the match with pasir ris sec the next day was- CRAPPY and DISAPPOINTING. x( during the 1st quarter,i felt rather glad that i had gotten quite a few balls,either by interception or rebound. it was such a sense of achievement. i felt as if there was a candle,or rather,a fire lit up in my heart,my mind. i felt so proud of myself. BUT - during the break,i was scolded - i forgot why- niwaes,the 2nd,3rd and 4th quarters were plain CRAPPY. i could feel my heart sink,that fire extinguished. ='( and we were to do 1 SET of suicide. cus we couldnt hit our target. within a mere 3 days,mondae till today-wednesday,ive cried more than twice. i cried once on mondae,i couldnt take my performance. it was WORSE than LOUSY. x( i was holding it in all the time. i swallowed it down. but not today- even during the 2nd quarter break,i was on the verge of crying. then during the 3rd quarter break,perrine was also on the verge of crying,of letting her emotions get the better of her. but im glad,im VERY MUCH proud of my team. we held on all the way,till the very last second,we never gave up. im proud of joanne,for pressing on even tho she seriously lacked confidence. im proud of perrine,for not allowing zuer to hold time,even tho she had arm injury. im proud of sokpeng,my darling partner,for carrying on the 4quarters,even tho she had serious muscle ache. im proud of everyone else on my team,for never giving up until the end. =)) i love you girls. (':

ive realised,that some words ive heard in sec3,and hearing them now all over again,feels different. he could say - if you dont wanna play,then we pack up and leave right now! - last year,and id feel,im gonna try harder,im gonna give it my best shot. this year,i feel the same,and more. id feel so upset,it starts to hurt. maybe its the fact that,its my last year,that im SO determined to push on,to give it my ALL,to be able to get into top4,to be able to complete wad my seniors had wanted to do. ... im giving it my best now.

i aint gonna give in without tryin *

+l0tsa lurve+
jane-