Just Dance.

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

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i've finally uploaded all those long overdue photos. the ones from prine's birthday, shanghai seduction, and the family outing. am not posting those. yet. its really not a very smart move to decide to upload a whole chunk of photos at 3.25am in the morning. especially when you have tuition in a few hours.

recent updates, i've been out to celebrate perrine and meiyun's 17th birthdays. been to a 1920s Shanghai themed party to stand around. basically not really studying much the whole of last week, and starting to feel effing guilty about it this week, but feeling lost. really lost.
i dont deny that there's been progress in my maths. slowly, but surely. but whats the point when the stupid exams are just bloody 2 weeks away. im effing stressed up now. i know im not allowed to play anymore. i know i've gotta sit down and effing study. BUT.
my mind just wanders off.
the temptations are all over the place.
i still cant do those stupid questions, which leads me to giving up.
im still afraid of those stupid questions!
its like, i see a pythagoras theorem question, and i immediately switch off, thinking: "damn, its toacahsoh, i dont know it." or i see a question with many different letters and numbers, i think:"shit, so complicated, confirm dont know." and i just go on to the next question without even attempting. im trying to change this now. but at this point of time, i really think its a lil too late.
im starting to worry. to stress about whats gonna happen next. about where im gonna go. im starting to think Shatec, Laselle, and to some extent, even though i really dont want to, Nafa. i dont wanna go to an ITE cause i know i wont excel there. look what happened when i went to a less-than-expected secondary school. when i ended up from the 1st class to last class. i won't do well. i'll just give up with the class. i've not been doing well, and i really want this to change. i really want to get into the chinese studies course. else mass comm. else the law course. but i just cant help but think, whats gonna happen if i dont pass my maths? im counting on DAE. but seriously, after applying consectively for 3 times, and not getting it, do i really think i can count on DAE as much? i dont know. i really dont.

can i really dont take exams, please?

theres this wetseal spree, ELF spree, and forever21 spree on this website. and i cant even be bothered to look. its the stress and the lack of moolah. im losin it. =/

jane-
fall down 7 times, stand up 8. but i really dont have that many chances.

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