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Thursday, April 24, 2008

Dusty baby & me. on the first day.

Dusty baby, mommy is so sorry. Mommy wants to say sorry to you sooo friggin' badly for not being observant enough. for allowing such a thing to happen. for not taking good enough care of you. for indirectly causing this. for everything.
Mommy misses you so badly, baby. Mommy misses your touch, your soft fur, your stone-ing. Dusty baby, my little rock, my puipui, mommy hopes you're in a better place now, that such a fate would not befall on you again.

love always, mommy.

ps. baby, you've left Mugen behind. she's so lonely now, but mommy will make up for it. Mommy will play with Mugen whenever she can, to try and take your place.

a million thanks to cockroach for being there. for telling me all the stories. for cheering me up that slight bit.
of course not forgetting, my dearest sister, for being there, for paying the bills first, for never blaming or judging me for what happened, and for playing puppets with me. :) i love you.
my jamie, for cheering me up with that heart attack.
my mrs lee, for asking, for being concerned.
hafiz, for the parrot story. it helped. just that slight bit, but it did.
sharil, for being so warm-hearted about the jane-fund.
my moomoo, for the msg. it meant a lot.
jamie, for at the very least, looking concerned.
mom, for that pat on the shoulder, and for being concerned.

thanks a million to all of you, for making my day feel less gloomy. for cheering me up. for letting me ease the pain.
i'm much better in the day now, but every little thing brings memories back. i am devastated, but things have turned out this way, and i have no choice but to accept.

AND YOU. i have no thanks for you. besides the car rides. other than that, shame on you. shame on you for being so unsympathetic. you have NO RIGHT to say that i am being too emotional/sentimental. i am, however tough, still a human. and just cause you can accept not being human to your pets, i can't. just as you were saying, you've been thru it all, so why can't you show a little more concern towards your own fucking daughter?! why, why must you bring it up all over again when my emotions have settled down. why, why must you rub it in with all those fucking useless comments of yours?! really, the best thing you can do, is to just shut up. upset as i am, you have brought out the anger in me. all those snide comments, whether delibrate or not, are NO HELP AT ALL, and i HATE you for that.
one last thing, im not being over emotional towards my darling baby. i'm just being human. so SHUT UP.

love,jane-
love, bring me some pixie dust tonight. not forgetting all the faith and trust in the world.

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