Just Dance.

Tuesday, July 07, 2009

dear friend,

i cannot. its not that i don't want to. honestly. just look at whats going on in my life. i will list them all out to you and you will see why i cannot stop.

im teaching, as you know. i have 2 students, taking, or at least im planning for them, to take their exam next year. and i cannot stop. because it is going to cost them lessons. they will not be able to cover enough before their exams.

im teaching tuition as well now. chinese tuition. hah. what did you expect. my girl is primary 6 this year, and taking her PSLEs. how to stop? i absolutely CANNOT.

im schooling. much as i hope i could just leave it, i can't. i've wasted too much time, retaking my Os, getting in and out of SIM, and finally settling here. i don't have any more time to waste.

im working. this is the one thing that i'm slightly more slack on. but still, i've debts to pay off. i've a life to keep up with. i CANNOT stop working! whos gonna pay for me?

im in rehearsals. my show is due for august. i cannot not go for rehearsals for goodness' sake! this means so much to me.

so yea. tell me how? its not that i don't wanna stop, really. its just.. i cannot.

i would love to as well, to just sit somewhere and stare at people the whole afternoon, i would love, of course, to go watch a play that i'll enjoy. i would love, to go catch up on all those movies that i've missed out on. just reading the afternoon away sounds like a great idea as well.

but all these, are luxuries that i cannot afford at this point.

aside for the fact that i would have to take time off matters, all of the above, or at least, almost all of it, is gonna cost me money. its the cruel truth, the brutal reality of life.

i know you're concerned, friend. and i really really thank you for that. because it is so rare in this day and society. because you let me feel this heartfelt concern which people neglect oh so often. because you actually care, and bother. because you're a friend.

so yea, i really really appreciate it, but at this point, this very moment, i cannot afford to lax, to slow down, to stop.

just to poke fun at you, no, believing in or having a religion at this moment, will not help. it'll take up even more of my time having to commit to a particular mighty being. ;)

love,

Jane
You need to slow way down and let others deal with the details today -- you're heading for burnout if you're not careful! It's not such a bad thing to take the day off and let the chips fall where they may.

- Astrology, july 6th, monday.
could be the reason why today seemed like such a wrecked day. :(

Labels: i need some skittles., Jane needs money. and a lot of sleep.