Just Dance.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

and so, its over.

The Crucible, as well as my 3 years with the young company.

i love them oh-so-dearly. the last 3 years, have brought me great joy. really. from tackling berkoff, to shakespeare, to arthur miller. all the things i never would've done otherwise.

Michael, Sue, Dan. the 3 people that mean so much to me. the 3 people who have taught me a great deal. the 3 people, whom i aim to be like.

The year's lessons have not concluded, yet. but i feel like, drawing a closure is so difficult. given a chance, i DO still want to go back next year. as chanel put it, where else would you get to do something like this and be on stage for real?

but my 3 years is up. my time is up, and its time to move on.

and move on i will. but not give up, thats for sure.

this year's production has shown me so much, has brought out so much in me.

tenderness. hah. what i thought was impossible. emotions, heartfelt ones. tear-jerking ones. the need for support. that, was a first. i still don't feel it very much now, and i don't want to anyways. so yea.

ann putnam, you rock my socks.

so watch out, world. Jane is ready.

It's not so easy loving me

It gets so complicated

All the things you've gotta be

Everything's changin

But you're the truth

I'm amazed by all your patience

Everything I put you through

When I'm about to fall

Somehow you're always waitin

with your open arms to catch me

You're gonna save me from myself

from myself, yes

You're gonna save me from myself

My love is tainted by your touch

Cuz some guys have shown me aces

But you've got that royal flush

I know it's crazy everyday

Well tomorrow may be shaky

But you never turn away

Don't ask me why I'm cryin

Cuz when I start to crumble

You know how to keep me smilin

You always save me from myself

from myself, myself

You're gonna save me from myself

I know it's hard, it's hard

But you've broken all my walls

You've been my strength, so strong

And don't ask me why I love you

It's obvious your tenderness

Is what I need to make me

a better woman to myself

to myself, myself

You're gonna save me from myself

no, Jane is capable enough. I will save me from myself. I will, can, and must. and i KNOW i can do it.

you, do not deserve anything more.

baby you're independent, yes you are. so stay that way. cause thats the way you're gonna be leaving it. nothing more.

royal flushes mean nothing to you. you know you can conjure something better. and you know you have something better than hope. stay that way darling, its gonna be like that, for the next few years at least, and you know you can do it.

you will rebuild all the walls that were broken down. you will set them strong, and you will prove them all wrong.

bear in mind what the dearest flower said to you, darling. cause its the truth and you know it. hale knows its true, ribbongirl knows its true, and above all, YOU know its true.

live, and let live honey. ♥

love,

jane-

fear, means i have something to lose.

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