Thursday, September 10, 2009
i think, somewhere up there, someone is playing a prank on me. :(
i've been so happy the past few days. saturday, sunday, monday, and the streak even carried on till tuesday. i got to see my dearest babies on tuesday. it was all happy and shiny till last night. really. SO VERY ANNOYING! >:(
story goes like this. i was supposed to go to hk with mom and the usual gang in september. the next weekend, to be specific. THEN. this. person whom we shall simply call WOMAN, says she will do all the arranging of stuffs and whatnots. she comes back and says that there are no air tickets for september. ALL ALONG, she had been outright against going in september. and WOW, magically, the bloody airlines follows her will and sells out!? SERIOUSLY, WOMAN!?
FINE. i got so annoyed, i say i will check it personally cause i was pissed like that. i check, and i realise the timings are crap. FINE. my bad. sorry for doubting you.
carrying on, mom INFORMS (not even ask, its bloody INFORM) me that, we will be going to macau. WTF?! i don't wanna go there! i've not been there, yes. but im not interested. and in this case, they're gonna go for a lame hk tour the first half of the day(just so they can get those stupid ferry tics to macau for free), then proceed to macau for the 2nd half of the day, spend the night there, and the next half of the day there before coming back to hk. for me, THATS A FRIKKIN' DAY AND A HALF WASTED THANKSVERYMUCH.
and so, even after i haven't gotten over this, TODAY, tuition kid informs me that her exam will be on the 9th october, 2009. thats her PSLE paper. the actual one. yes.
we were planning to go from 6th-10th october.
ONE WAVE AFTER ANOTHER. TELL ME HOW NOT TO SUSPECT SOMEONE IS OUT TO GET ME?
i know, i know. this is something so small. but ITS ANNOYING DAMMIT.
my days, i would like to spend happy and smiley and all. not having to think about these annoying little things.
fucking hell annoying.
idk what to do now. :(
i really really really REALLY wanna go! but not with WOMAN messing things up, not with me not being able to be around for tuition kid, not with having to waste a day and a half dealing with stupid aunties who might be on the same tour as us, going to macau and all.
if the date can't be changed, for all you know, much as i want to, i might just skip it. saves everything innit. sucker.
i really want to just sit down and cry and ignore everything, and let things miraculously right themselves.
miss oracle. i really miss you. i know you're probably busy and all now that you've gone corporate. idk what to say really, i just miss you quite terribly.
oh this really random note, i was on the train with miss friend-whos-also-sick while on my way home the other day. and then idk why, but we started talking about kids. and i was being me, as usual, talking about not having kids, not getting married. and she went: "cause you're still so young, i'm how old already." and then almost instinctively, defensively, i thought- but its not about the age! idk. kfine. maybe, i MIGHT be about the age. but. AHWELLS.
yes evil one, THE CURSE. it runs in the family. my mind is bursting with thoughts. T.T
and somehow, i know this post is gonna turn out badly, so NO, DO NOT, mention of it to ANYONE ELSE INVOLVED. YES, I'M TALKING ABOUT YOU MISS SER. LEAVE IT. whatever is here, remains here, UNLESS, either one of the 3 mums find out, OF THEIR OWN ACCORD. otherwise, LEAVE IT HERE. i don't need any extra drama to this saga thanksverymuch.
love,
jane-
i would like to break this curse, for badluck, and for over-thinking please.
Labels: i need some skittles., I'm. NOT. strong. enough, OBVIOUSLY FED-UP
